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Hi,

Got to attend the dawn service for Anzac Day, sprinting to it through the city at 4am after 21 hours without sleep, food and water(was coding an assignment) is an awesome experience. Anzac Day doesn’t really mean something to you until you have connected to those who you relate to who  suffered.

Just like out of sight , out of mind in the Beach and in Brave New World. After connecting with my great aunt and reading Monash and several other books on the Anzac legacy, and being told how my nose is the same as an ancestor of mine, who was in signals in France in WW1, their legacy feels more relevant and related to me as it stands.

My room is now clear and my trading card games are all sorted. I also got excursions into design of experiments using Haguchi methods and Fractional Factorial analysis.

I have also discovered that rss feeds , digg and reddit, delicious and other aggregators of relevant information make tradtional news information sources seem boring, irrelevant, biased and ridiculous. Newspapers and television seem gloomy, hypercritical and emotive wrangling.

I am aiming to get recording working again, so I can start audio / video blogging, and performing some of my skits. rebecca (my eeepc) is working  quite well other that the occasional DRI2, UXA , GEM Intel graphics glitch. I am allocating time to fix ulrica , but I really need to focus on the INB302 project, as not as much work got done of that during the break.

I learnt my lesson with this INB381, start early, and just use structs instead of C++ std containers, because the design we are given for polygon meshes leads to cyclic dependency which doesn’t mix well with constructors that take other classes, which depend on other clasess which take other clasess etc.

Forward declaration didn’t work, neither did layer 1 struct encapsulation, conversion to structs or layer 2 or 3 struct encapsulation may have worked but I didn’t have the time.  So at least in the second assignment I should do better.

Currently I am hoping that I get the chance to juggle everything well and that things blossom into awesome, because juggling awesome is fun.

Best wishes and best of luck

Benjamin Southall aka Appleman1234

Hi everyone,

From Fools and deception, to new life, remdemption and the Spring Equinox in the Northern hemisphere anyways, considering that most know this time for its church services and chocolate egg, I guess we haven’t moved that far at all.

Holidays are symbolic and holiday spirit and passion for holiday traditions is a state of mind. I don’t think Maple or wxMaxima (CASes) would be able to solve or derive the meaning of them anymore than most humans do.

It is so easy to get caught up in the hype and FUD (fear, uncertaintity and doubt) and lose sight of our heritage s human beings and the rituals that were so important long ago, that have since been misplaced. It isn’t hard to become engulfed into mass indoctrinism whether its purpose is economic in the supposed crisus or religious in times when a lack of belief ,faith ,hope and trust in ourselves is so common.

I have been almost as busy as the bees that helter skelter from spring flower to spring flower in search of pollen. My tasks however to be a less leisurely pace and are accompanied more with clattering of keystrokes and whirring of  computer fans.

Buses are fun to miss by two minutes. Puzzles are fun to solve, especially if your short on time. All the life and death carefully modelled with non linear ordinary differential equations and then steady states found and typed up into Latex via Lyx.

Balance is important in more ways than one, considering how much I was sneezing on Tuesday. I have rediscovered and given new life to some things that have been dormant a while including the LainOS revival project, several changes to how well rebecca(eeepc) is runnig from a kernel update, the acquisition of an 18plus card and various other things. (UXA causes Blender menus not work render properly, EXA causes title bars of windows to be slightly glitched)

After this LAN I am at ends today,I will probably catch up on sleep and then proceed to working a precarious pace towards the goals I need to reach. For the moment for  the buses missed, I will just have to catch the next ones.

Meanwhile I will just keep swimming, rembering, bideing my time, hoping that everything falls elegantly into place.

What does spring mean to you ? What puts a spring in your step ? Does your life feel redeemed by your existence ?

Best wishes,

Benjamin Southall aka Appleman1234

Hi everyone,

How are you all ? How was your April’s fool’s day ? I am blargh.

Google’s April Fool creation of CADIE had me filled with joy, and its removal from the internet has left despair in its place. I really want to combine Google’s suggestion of CADIE, the rat molecule brain robot experiments and the antropomorphic fashion robot in Japan, to create a true Hard AI that has minature robotic body that assimilates computing resources based on the other computing equipment / cloud that it can connect to. (See GIR from Invader Zim, or Questionable Content’s  AnthroPC)

I went to a trivia night with my family for my dad’s birthday yesterday, it was interesting to say the least. Once again it proved that the enemy of knowing the correct answers is self doubt and mistrust.

Maths Modelling lab test went ok (aside from me injecting an imaginary steady state where there wasn’t one, and then realising my mistake and correcting it) and I did well on my first advanced calculus assignment.

I have yet to get Supernova tickets (hopefully I will get them tommorow), which ironically just guarantee me a cooler venue in which to work my contribution to a group project, another two assignments and study for an advanced calculus midsemester.

In case anyone is wondering, I will just end up cosplaying as me, because it is easier and I am short on time.  I talked to jabberwacky today (ai chat  bot) and learn’t that it wasn’t an improvement of my conversations with most people , much to my disappointment.

All the knowledge in my head seems to be reassembling and sorting itself into more complex and dynamic patterns, which is causing me to be surprised by my thought associations and the strengh of my memory. Relevance however is another issue.

Emotively I feel like I am in darkness and isolation, but am still edgy from my tolerance for suffering and convolution highly strained.  I guess this feeling will stay for a while, until I spot something euphoria like a shiny non dead butterfly to temporarily cause lost of focus of my social and workload situations.

It rained today it was nice.

Best wishes

Benjamin Southall aka Appleman1234