The online home of Appleman1234 / Benjamin Southall

Salutations in moonlight

Truth …

Lies ….

Secrets …

Surprises …

Honesty & Chivalry war in my mind’s eye

Seeking Compassion & Redemption

For Crimes Not Committed

For Glass Shards that bleed my barefeet

And yet don’t exist, or perhaps my feet aren’t there

I couldn’t be certain, and yet I couldn’t be wrong

The damage done and only realised post mortem

If only consumption was enough

One day you will all get the keys

To play in the ball pit and do as you please

Hopefully by then my half-life will have decreased

But perhaps we seek the pain and damage

To prove we are real, as having faith in something

In order to just feel, Depravity becomes Humanity

As we stop caring, and just continue to exist

Legal obligations require moral sacrifice

And a pound of flesh and a pound of soul

Should both weigh the same

Persecution, Criticism creep along the foundations of Tolerance and Acceptance

A riddle and a rhyme interlocked in time , its all between the lines

Of a polygon that doesn’t exist, don’t bother with the compass

It will only lead you to the labyrinth, and why go there when you could have had icecream instead

Fight the Minotaur, Wage your holy war, only to realise you are just killing yourself

So much self assisted suicide, it is as though we think we are born to die

Use by dates stamped on our heads, ensuring innocence is lost

Things loved and people discarded, in hopes that we can accept ourselves

Balls of string and dainty things, provide the perfect disguise for cyanide tea

Kippers gone know, along with the dolphins and whales

Have you seen Alice she owes me a prose, the White Rabbit owes me my pocketwatch

And when I will next see either, noone knows

Eat this, Drink that, Size doesn’t matter, does it ?

Too late now the order is past, off with your head!

Oh wait, you’re already headless blast

The caged bird it sings of the blue skies and the sunshine

Never realising that the door is open wide,

Brrr, so that is why my neck is cold, despite its mantle

Rhapsody or Empathy , what was that which was said to me ?

If I had a penny for each time, then I would be penniless

Everything has its price, and everything good doesn’t feel right

Hide and go seek, 1… 2… 3…, Try as you might you won’t find me

Before you know I will have climbed the FarAway Tree

Or hidden from myself, whether I fancy

If you were lucky, then a skeleton you would find, with ring on my finger

And Wardrobe behind, Narnia or Dorian Gray as too my fate, either would say

Nothing and no-one, abundance and glee, shrouded in hollow comptemt and facidious misery

Would I sup with Saint George, only if I could save him the trouble of committing genocide ?

Or perhaps the Jackerwocky is a better dinner guest , behind his appearance and behaviour, is less of a mess

Giant wooden bunnies and rude castle intentions, false bravery and a luck break

False illusions of grandeur and stones and dead birds

Are shallowly laughed at without saying a word

Recurring dreams, nightmares and doom, I’d rather be betrayed by Jack Sparrow, then conclude

That eight pieces of eight isn’t sixty four and that isn’t Thumbelina making out with Little Jack Horner

On the hearth rug, and what of the Calico cat and Gingham Dog, bickering over colour swatches and then doing each others laundry over coffee

It is so much easier to love a dream, as a dream doesn’t carry poison knifes, wielded with deadly aims,

Instead prefer to haunt the mind, scourging the soul, for whatever they find.

And the Doctor says I should go camping, but I have no intention of going to Gor, as fun as it would be to meet the Priest Kings or live and die by the homestone, and sword…

And those Ninja rats can watch and wait, the Oracle of Ishadna doesn’t know my fate

As for Sebastin’s composure and the love of the CareBears, well I guess they are over…

The Hill, sat a cross, an innocent life, surrounded by naughts, and yet that is somehow more fair then global thermonuclear war.

Why fight for peace, when you can play chess, beware the path of the knight at its best

Too many wagers, too little time, play not to win, not to lose, but to escape with my life

Torch of Illuminace + 3 doesn’t make the cavern any less dingy

Oh look I killed a Newt, now to roll a 6, Please pass the fruit

Peas catapulted, potato flying, along with Spaghetti, such a monstrosity unlike the cafeteria has ever seen

It will take a 1000 cleaners, a year and half just to get this clean

Ajax from chemical to web success, marketing buzzwords portray standards as second best.

Pictures mosaicing a path, Smiles breaking an already brittle heart, but at least the filling is sweet

And the flesh is good, quite nice to eat,

The Lion and the Mouse, The Rabbit and Tortoise ,

They try to teach you wisdom but you discard such childish pursuits.

To go play your Wii or see what is on cable TV ? Where was your class supposed to go ? The Museum ? The Opera ?

Or was it to witness Jimminy Cricket, the conscience of Pinnoccho

Culture these days is more like bacteria then humanity, growing in our yoghurt while we fail to care

Behind the mask, under the trapdoor, what lurks there now, that wasn’t before

You wish it was those two plumber brothers, collecting coins and spitting fireballs

In the above is hidden many meanings and some wisdom, there is still gems in plain sight but the coal is buried much deeper, and the pocketwatch deeper still, and if you get deep enough you might realise why I write this.

There is no question, the spontaneous prose / poem is cryptic enough, if you find it easy, think again slightly different, it should be more tough…,

How do I feel today ? I feel broken, but not damaged broken, just normal broken, so really nothing is wrong with me, I am just having troubles with emotions, self expression and fortitude

Not sure if it is because I am bored or because I am nice, but here are some clues, more cryptic advice:

The message above mentions or intertexutalates with

Sorrow
Jim Henson’s the StoryTeller
Wisdom
My Mind
The Layout of My Mind
Radioactivity
Shakespeare
Geometry /Mathematics for Computer Graphics
Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy
Japanese Whaling Crisis
Alice in Wonderland
Bohemia
Enid Blyton / The Faraway Tree
Oscar Wilde (The Portrait of Dorian Gray)
CS Lewis (Chronicles of Narnia)
Saint George and the Dragon
Jabberwocky
Monty Python
Pirates of Caribbean
Fairytales and Mother Goose
Calico Cat and Gingham Dog
Doctor Who
Gor
Wizards and Warriors
Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles
Little Mermaid
Carebears
Worldhopping
Wargames
Jesus
Chivalry
Dungeons and Dragons
Humilation
Food fight
Flying Spaghetti Monster
Ajax
Spain
Mosaic
Jewel
Valentine’s Day
Cannibalism
Crabmeat
Aesop & his fables
Popular culture
Simcity 3000
Pinocchio
Disney
Acidolphius
The Mask
The Phantom
Secret Seven / Famous Five
The Mario Brothers
And several more that I haven’t realised yet…

Have fun,

Benjamin Southall aka Appleman1234

Hey everyone,

Uni is back, had my first Mathematical Modelling (mainly ODEs based) lecture today, and the lecturer who is new to QUT, mentioned over crowding and yeast that said “Life is crap, this place (petri dish) is crowded and crap, I want to die”, to which the entire lecture room laughed, and I had to suppress a shout of Emo Yeast!!.

On the last week of the holidays I spent lots of time at Ruben’s, because he had his LAN party (which wasn’t bad) and his birthday which was awesome, I met lots of cool people, demonstrated my skill or lack there of at pool / 8 ball. Cries of “Damn you Bede” were echoed in both events, and the watching of Family Guy, Firefly and Invader Zim were enjoyed all round.

I was going to upload my resume website thingy after cleaning it up, but it seems to have mystically disappeared, so I can’t do that obviously. I am currently composing / writing the verses and bridge for a song that I have the chorus for and also brushing up on my knowledge of C, C++, QT, Assembly and ODEs (Ordinary Differential Equations).

I also bumped into an old school acquaintance on the train, and that reminds of my quest / task of attempting to have a reunion or Mafia or Mao game with a bunch of people, those who are interested just email me or respond to my email when I get round to emailing you.

Other interesting things that have been happening,

The Magic Train Ticket (It changed dates or something like that, as it was accepted by lots of people who asked, when I found my real / current (not old) in the bottom of my pocket I was so surprised)

The Mecure has a good steak sandwich.

The Guy on the Train, that accused me of staring at him, and then when I made sure to only look at my knees / feet, he asked was something wrong.

[RANT] Why does everyone automatically categorise and associate negative connations with certain actions, If I am sighing there is something wrong, If I look at my feet, there is something wrong, If I look in someone’s general direction, I am staring at them and thus I have a problem with them.

Where will it end, will it become like certain events in the US where if you look at someone accidentally and they interpret it as the wrong way, you get stabbed or shot ? Clarification is a very important part of communication and stereotyping people just to improve one’s self esteem or to alleviate the fear of unknown doesn’t limit that person, it limits your relationship, behaviour towards and your ability to cope with that person.

It is only when a person stereotypes themselves or believes the stereotype that their self esteem begins to suffer. Where did courtesy go ? chivalry ?

I wish people would understand that same and equal are not equivalent. Men and Women are equal but not the same,Different Ethnicities are Equal but not the same, People placed in stereotypes are equal to that stereotype (if the stereotype is logically placed without bias) but they are not the same as that stereotype.

Equality isn’t about making everyone the same, it isn’t about forced integration and interaction and facadious multiculturalism. Equality is about realising that despite our differences we are equal and tolerating those differences or even celebrating those differences doesn’t hurt a society.

I think that feminists shouldn’t misinterpret chivalry as a sexist gesture that implies that can’t do things (open doors etc) as well as men. If men are being chivalrous (which is rare enough these days), then just accept the chivalry graciously. As a sidenote to this can the idiots (normally male) who are being chivalrous just in order to get into a girl’s pants, please stop because you are ruining it for the rest of us.

The journey is more important that the destination.

*SIGH* end rant (this rant may have wisdom inside it, if you can be bothered looking)

[/RANT]

As for the Skeletal Clothing I suppose that would be skin and muscle tissue, but I was actually referring to the awesome picture on Chrystle’s LJ. (LJ is down ATM :()

Have fun,

Imagine life as a drop of rain, or a snowflake, If you could play any game on an amusement park ride what would it be and why ?

Benjamin Southall aka Appleman1234

Between lighting the fire and my current pastime of cooking Chiko rolls (pan fry as apparently baking them is treason to their iconic Australianism), the closed windows because it is winter there is little piece between then shrill howl of the two smoke-alarms that do their jobs oh so well (setting off at least 8 times consecutively for lighting a fire in fireplace and 3 (make that 5) for pan frying Chiko rolls)

I prefer open fires to fireplaces as there is so much more freedom, as your not limited to a small cubic box and my Chiko rolls are much more black / charred then their advertisement claims. (My guess is their instructions don’t cover a gas stove and cast iron frying pan)

Anyways back to fry pan I go to make sure the kitchen isn’t on fire :P.

UPDATE: Their distributor has a money back satisfaction guarantee, so If I don’t enjoy my black Chiko rolls, I can get money back.

Hey everyone,

This was going to be an audio post, but I don’t feel like talking /recording at the moment.

Anyhow I have lots to cover.

First Things First (Because they can be first, second or last and it wouldn’t matter) and keeping them brief so people can’t use excuse it is too much read. *sighes*

Over the holidays so far (since after the Trolltech BBQ), I have attended a 75th birthday that was so much fun. It is really fun to be able to catch up with family friends and their family. Funny or interesting sub-events at this event included:

• The cute children and the newborn baby (terribly cute).
• Siblings and Mother arriving late after half listening / misinterpreting directions
• My reluctance to eat until the Kabana & Liquorice arrived (on the platter of nibbles we weren’t supposed to bring but did anyways)
• The early accidental unveiling of the birthday cake.
• The hide and seek / cover myself with hat and hood game, played with 2 to 3 little youngsters trying to dehood / dehat me.
• The impromptu request (as I am studying mathematics & IT) to fix someone’s palm pilot.
• The piece of cake that fell on the ground, that I bet my little brother would walk / step in, and he did.

After this (a few days) we had two of the people (close family friends, Lisa and Alice) come for a weekend sleepover. Interesting things that occured include but are not limited to

• The poker game based on the success of my little brother’s (should I call him bother, for now he has the benefit of the doubt) flamboyant attire (suit and cane, etc, etc) in the previous game, which I was winning until Lisa asked to win some, sure enough she won the game :). (see previous post for why I find poker boring..)
• The watching of Robin Hood Season One on my laptop (Thanks Dallas so much for that….) , after the first few episodes, there were two more Jonas Armstrong fans in the house.
• The attendance of the Abbey Medieval Fair (sub-events are shown below)
  • The drive in Lisa’s car (her driving has improved, and I still don’t drive)
  • The broken CD player that would only play the first 5 or 6 songs of a CD.
  • The more comic than skilled Jester that was been very modern in handing out a business card with his Myspace
  • Getting to see two pigs and a lamb on spits
  • Asking an expert in regards to weapons used by the clergy (as originally discussed in #wesnoth @ Freenode)
  • Watching almost everyone but me get more excited over the presence of Shelley Craft than the fact they were at the medieval festival
  • Walking Lisa through a medieval market and have her not purchase any non food items
  • Looking at Germanic early cannons
  • Getting irritated at trivial and major inconsistencies made by those with the best intentions in reenacting medieval life
  • Avoiding bumping to people (Including someone from Lisa’s uni, Celeste, Chrystle ( ) and at least 7 other people)
  • Seeing how chainmail is made, after misinterpreting the location of the event (That was my fault, but we were only 10 minutes late and it wasn’t crowded)
  • Missing the oppurtunity to get better seats for the jousting, because I choose to wait for Lisa and Alice to get Snow Cones (Did they exist in medieval times ?)
  • Not dressing up and pretending to be Ivanhoe (I so wanted to…)
• Watching the wonderful French Movie “The Singer” (so sad, so romantic, so French)
• Having a wonderful brunch with more family friends (Paul, Birgit and Jessica from the Gold Coast)
  • Their story about the letter about their journey through Africa was amazing and awe inspiring
  • Oh and the food for the brunch was very very good. (not to die for)
• Having Dallas come over (Lisa and Alice left soon after.) (Dallas has a chicken and we have scraps for it to eat, it is a good arrangement, Dallas you should mention your chicken on your blog and upload a photo or something)
• Watching Jessica and Dallas play air hockey (first there was rules and order, then cheating and chaos)

After all the fun was over I got online and checked my QUT Virtual and allo and behold, my results were posted and I didn’t fail anything :). So the second Round or Third Round of Space Invaders is cleared, although without the shield bonus and gun bonus (see previous post for the in joke).

I really should be doing more with my holidays, I have lots planned and lots of planning to do and will get around to it before Uni is back. I have been playing Wesnoth, slowly translating bits and pieces of Wesnoth into Indonesian in Kate, I tried Kbabel didn’t like its obfuscating and specific interface, I have installed poEdit and am yet to try it.

I have also been chatting on IRC and MSN, one of my recent conversations was with Mircea / Danny / Rastilin (not sure exactly what his name is, he is a friend of Nick Stallman), started out a question about Debian, and became a beliefs / philosophies argument (at kept me up till 3am).

My analysis of his approach is shown below (The full log will be shown on request only, until I am ready to a major philosophy post, this post will only have the analysis and some highlights)

(02:17:27 AM) Appleman1234: it is interesting
(02:17:50 AM) Appleman1234: whenever you deem yourself as not being victorious, you change the subject or the angle
(02:18:23 AM) Appleman1234: or when your logic doesn’t result in the conclusion you expect from me you instead resort to taunting and cheap insults
(02:20:34 AM) Appleman1234: however the method of conversation you are using isn’t exactly that of critical thinking, or that of scientific reasoning , or even that of scientific or philosophical skepticism
(02:21:23 AM) Appleman1234: it is merely I believe your belief is wrong because of Reason A and because it doesn’t match mine,
(02:21:48 AM) Appleman1234: when asked to clarify you either do so reluctantly or vaguely
(02:22:28 AM) Appleman1234: and when posed with questions, you either claim incomprehensibility or retort with an unjustified insult
(02:23:29 AM) Appleman1234: I also forgot the stereotyped
(02:24:10 AM) Appleman1234: So logically you haven’t invalidated or changed any of my beliefs
(02:29:27 AM) Appleman1234: however your style does remind me of doublethink

It makes me wonder as such (referring back to the protester and the candle, (if you know what I am talking about , you are a diligent reader of my blog and I admire you)) why people try to discredit others beliefs, to replace them with their own all in the name of criticism and critical thinking ?

Beliefs are rather important and special to a person, if you remove their belief system, what do they have to live for ? What are they to believe ?, before you attempt anything as to brash as basically brainwashing someone with their consent, at least be able to answer the question “Why should I believe what you believe”, with a better answer than “Because I said so”.

Highlights from the chatlog are shown below:

01:47:59 AM) rastilin: You want me to debunk your beliefs with illogic?
(01:48:08 AM) rastilin: Purple flying elephants!
(01:48:08 AM) rastilin: There
(01:48:12 AM) rastilin: Debunked with illogic.
(01:48:14 AM) Appleman1234: sigh
(01:48:25 AM) Appleman1234: that is surrealism not illogic
(01:49:32 AM) rastilin: Is there something wrong with my logic?
(01:51:49 AM) Appleman1234: no just your interpretation / definition of debunk, illogic and your understanding Gödel’s incompleteness theorems

(01:26:09 AM) rastilin: The hardest lesson I learned was that I was not a special snowflake or holder of unthought wisdom.
(01:26:50 AM) Appleman1234: why limit yourself through lessons, why not expand yourself instead ?
(01:27:05 AM) rastilin: Because the expansion is an illusion.
(01:27:07 AM) Appleman1234: if you have nothing to gain from a lesson , why learn it ?
(01:27:17 AM) Appleman1234: Reality is an illusion
(01:27:22 AM) Appleman1234: it is all perception
(01:27:22 AM) rastilin: Because there is something to gain, I just can’t see it from where I’m standing.
(01:27:32 AM) rastilin: That’s silly.
(01:27:52 AM) Appleman1234: faith in incorrect perception is your reasoning and yet you label me silly
(01:28:25 AM) Appleman1234: I would rather believe that I can be right, then that I am always going to be wrong from a different viewpoint

There could be more but this post is long enough already. On the bright side I visualised more of my philosophies and certain constructs and I discovered ##philosophy on Freenode, on the dark side I got 6 hours sleep this morning and I got kicked from my Wesnoth Game.

Final Note: I got phpMyID working and now I can log into LJ and post on Chrystle’s and Stephen Thorne’s LJs :). (I only took me 6 hours due to a typo…)

This blogs question is Do you belief in acceptance of others and if so or if not , then why ?

Best wishes

Benjamin Southall aka Appleman1234

Hey everyone,

Lots has been happening over the last few days. I did my Linear Algera exam (*crosses fingers*), it was hard as I didn’t do enough study (as usual (as it was clustered) ) and the stuff I did study wasn’t really as relevant as I needed it to be.

The next morning (morning-after) I went to uni, to catch up with Cheater, Ruben, etc, and Cheater and I went war-walking with Cheater’s new GPS (thank goodness his blog is no longer forbidden, but it does have Paris Hilton as the latest topic, which is almost the same. *SUBLIMINAL Message to CHEATER* *Talk about your War-walking instead a stupid rich moronic drunk nymphomaniac and her apparent confessions*) (Yes I don’t like Paris Hilton, mainly because she is the poster girl for stupidity and ignorance.)

Anyhow we went war walking to try and map the wireless networks close to my home away from home, with Cheater’s laptop containing two PCMCIA wireless cards (same chipset, double the scan radius (600m :))), it was tiring but great exercise and the lopsided path we took made it all the more interesting. The laptop had Gpsdrive, kismet and festival for text-to-speech. (You know you know too much about festival when you can identify the voice types by given name ;))

We found about 260 wireless networks to add to Cheater’s collection / map. (approx 2700). We then headed back to uni to attend the Trolltech BBQ, which was awesome and was one event that made my ITSA membership worthwhile, although I didn’t eat anything as I was full from breakfast (buffet as it was my sister’s birthday :)).

I did get to meet Lorn Potter (aka ljp, aka the Trolltech Qtopia guy) , which was quite a pleasant experience, this combined with meeting other Trolltech people and observing other people playing pool (8-ball) whilst I gave one last shot at my entry for the Greenphone competition (I missed the deadline, sigh, always next time :P). (I wanted to write a bluetooth instant messaging client).

Ruben actually made it to the semi-finals, which is awesome and we found powerpoints to recharge our laptops :).
(After this)Other occurrences included catching up with Dallas and getting an unexpected gift (robin hood season 1 boxed set dvd) (Thank you so much Dallas :)), working on / looking through Plone skins and products, catching up with the Minatels and getting jumped on and licked to death by their undisciplined and large puppy :P. (they have to grow up sometime ….).

It is now the holidays and I am free, to get lots of things done hopefully, and to catch up with all the people who I have accidentally neglected because I was too busy with Uni / Life and other things that get in the way. At least that is the plan. *sigh*, I am in sighing mood this morning.

Also we had a family texas hold-em poker game or few with monopoly money. I won 3 games out of 4, and when I last played 5 card stud, I won 5 games in a row, maybe it is the mathematics :P, but I have a feeling my poker face of a cheeky grin surrounded in ever longer hair is just lucky ;).

Speaking of games, I would love to have a mao / mafia game / reunion and will add it to my todolist in Makagiga. I am glad that Chrystle is having so much fun with the Abbey Tournament / Festival preparations, she is going as a volunteer, I didn’t register and am not sure if I will attend, it will depend on how busy I am.

(I feel guility (but I shouldn’t ) that she feels guility (but she shouldn’t) over her behavior (nasty words) / sleeping when I was over / in conversation). I was apathetic (not caring about anything / numb) so nothing she said hurt me, *sighes* and she changed her morality in order to feel guility (argh at paradoxical guilt trips or guilt spirals).

Spirals sure are pretty, but when they involve guilt, love, hatred, lust, <insert powerful emotion here> they can be painful as well. Why does Gatl never talk to me in a apathetic mood (she would like me more then) ? Such is life and irony and cheesecake, I also got exposed to Borat, and have discovered that it is not funny, just stupid. *sigh* To quote a Borat in joke, The movie was a Great Success!! ………….. NOT !!!

Also does anyone feel like a pillow fight because I feel like a pillow fight, I also got to go worldhopping right before my exam (of any night why that one) , but at least it was fun, I already missed Bo’s party and I am not sure when Ruben is having his lan, but am soon to find out…

I also recently recalled the entire lyrics of the song Silo by Judy Small, but won’t paste it all here due to copyright. (It wasn’t on several other websites due to her requests)

Suffice to say the song is about the employees of nuclear silos that are responsible to for setting the nukes off, this post’s comes from the last verse of the song.

What if we said “No!”, when the final call came
And all other Silos decided the same
If no buttons were pressed, no missiles flew
Would we be heroes or traitors to you ?

This verse and the song Silo are not mine but belong to Judy Small (My dad is like her biggest fan, and I quite like her music :))

UPDATE: I found the full Silo lyrics here

Heroes or traitors ?

Best wishes and have fun over the break,

Benjamin Southall aka Appleman1234

PS: An audio blog will be coming soon ….

Hey,

This goes out all the Maths people I know. It also intends to be one of my shorter posts.

Gamma Song

MathmaticalPi

Flax, Burlap, Flannel

And quoting Ivanhoe (because I love Burbank Films Australia animated feature film which I have and watched on VHS)

“Second to NONE,” said the Pilgrim, who had stood near enough to hear, and had listened to this conversation with marked impatience. All turned toward the spot from whence this unexpected asseveration was heard. “I say,” repeated the Pilgrim in a firm and strong voice, “that the English chivalry were second to NONE who ever drew sword in defence of the Holy Land. I say besides, for I saw it, that King Richard himself, and five of his knights, held a tournament after the taking of St John-de-Acre, as challengers against all comers. I say that, on that day, each knight ran three courses, and cast to the ground three antagonists. I add, that seven of these assailants were Knights of the Temple—and Sir Brian de Bois-Guilbert well knows the truth of what I tell you.”

It is impossible for language to describe the bitter scowl of rage which rendered yet darker the swarthy countenance of the Templar. In the extremity of his resentment and confusion, his quivering fingers griped towards the handle of his sword, and perhaps only withdrew, from the consciousness that no act of violence could be safely executed in that place and presence. Cedric, whose feelings were all of a right onward and simple kind, and were seldom occupied by more than one object at once, omitted, in the joyous glee with which he heard of the glory of his countrymen, to remark the angry confusion of his guest; “I would give thee this golden bracelet, Pilgrim,” he said, “couldst thou tell me the names of those knights who upheld so gallantly the renown of merry England.”

“That will I do blithely,” replied the Pilgrim, “and without guerdon; my oath, for a time, prohibits me from touching gold.”

“I will wear the bracelet for you, if you will, friend Palmer,” said Wamba.

“The first in honour as in arms, in renown as in place,” said the Pilgrim, “was the brave Richard, King of England.”

“I forgive him,” said Cedric; “I forgive him his descent from the tyrant Duke William.”

“The Earl of Leicester was the second,” continued the Pilgrim; “Sir Thomas Multon of Gilsland was the third.”

“Of Saxon descent, he at least,” said Cedric, with exultation.

“Sir Foulk Doilly the fourth,” proceeded the Pilgrim.

“Saxon also, at least by the mother’s side,” continued Cedric, who listened with the utmost eagerness, and forgot, in part at least, his hatred to the Normans, in the common triumph of the King of England and his islanders. “And who was the fifth?” he demanded.

“The fifth was Sir Edwin Turneham.”

“Genuine Saxon, by the soul of Hengist!” shouted Cedric—“And the sixth?” he continued with eagerness—“how name you the sixth?”

“The sixth,” said the Palmer, after a pause, in which he seemed to recollect himself, “was a young knight of lesser renown and lower rank, assumed into that honourable company, less to aid their enterprise than to make up their number—his name dwells not in my memory.”

“Sir Palmer,” said Sir Brian de Bois-Guilbert scornfully, “this assumed forgetfulness, after so much has been remembered, comes too late to serve your purpose. I will myself tell the name of the knight before whose lance fortune and my horse’s fault occasioned my falling—it was the Knight of Ivanhoe; nor was there one of the six that, for his years, had more renown in arms.—Yet this will I say, and loudly—that were he in England, and durst repeat, in this week’s tournament, the challenge of St John-de-Acre, I, mounted and armed as I now am, would give him every advantage of weapons, and abide the result.”

(the quote is from the book :))

Anyhow gamma gamma Ivanhoe (so much for short :P)

Benjamin Southall aka Appleman1234

Hey,

I just redid some meme’s and the results are interesting.

For that movie chainmail (quoting a pun made a Chrystle’s house) one I scored 168, apparently if it is over 85 the person has no life ? Does this make me a zombie ? Heck I have seen more movies then AnthonyDinozzo :P. Just recently I rewatched How the West was Won and Bedknobs and Broomsticks. (The guy who plays Mister Brown , is the same guy who plays Mr Banks in Marry Poppins, and I must say his acting ability is on par with Dick Van Dyke’s.)

Currently I am studying, and am trying to fix my Gentoo Linux toolchain so that Wine will build with a custom ebuild (the chroot binary toolchain packages method didn’t work, but thanks for the suggestion Redhatter), I did these quizzes for the fun of it and Chrystle kind of inspired me. But I must say that I fine the little HTML things so ugly and silly that I am just going to post plain text results here.

I did the Geek Test much earlier (the one on innergeek), for the one on nerdtests.com I got 100% scored lower (less geeky). (& the computer god sticker which I am not posting here). For the Real Geek Test I got 67.8501%, which equates to Geek God………………………………≥65%. This just proves the accuracy and validity and quality of the innergeek test over other geek tests. (I am analysing Geek Tests , how geeky is that, maybe I should put my statistics knowledge to good use and do an ANOVA or GLM or three).

—–BEGIN GEEK CODE BLOCK—–
Version: 3.12
GAT d(-..+) s+:- a—(a?) C++++ UL++++(+++) P+>++ L++++(+++) !E W+++ N+(++) w—(–) O M+ V- PS+(++) PE Y PGP- t+ 5 X R*(++) tv(+) b++(+++) DI+ D++ G++(+++)
e>++ h*(h) !r(–) y?(y-)
——END GEEK CODE BLOCK——

Is my Geekcode :), I think it conforms to the specifications, unlike the previous version which didn’t conform as I had to implement several operators and classifiers. Speaking of zombies, I got a 63% of surviving a zombie apocalypse in that meme.

In some of the other memes I got :

For Stupidity Quiz
You scored as a Not Stupid At All
You know your stuff when it comes to history and geography

For the Highschool Clique Quiz

You scored as a Loner
YOU HAVE NO SOCIAL LIFE! thats ok
Loner
80%

Geek/Nerd
73%

Emo Kid
53%

“Ghetto”
20%

Hot
20%

Prep
13%

Goth
13%

Punk
7%

Stoner
7%

Jock
7%

This result is kind of a contradiction in the fact the I can partially relate to almost all of the cliques but I am mainly a loner / geek, so none of them will interact with me, interesting no ?

Interesting Links include

Linux Commerical

And Ozy & Millie’s Logical Fallacy Tag, now I what to play logical fallacy tag, speaking of which I am going to try and organise a reunion / get together of people that are interested in playing Mao or Mafia, especially those at my 18th and those who couldn’t make it.

Which city in the world is most tolerable of pogosticks ? of polkadots ?

Have fun

Benjamin Southall aka Appleman1234

Hey everyone,

The last few days have been relaxed and busy almost in simultaneity.

A nyhow onwards to the odds and ends….

Statistics exam is done and hopefully I did well in it. (I only forgot the proof of equal variances bit which was only worth 3 marks.)

On my way home, I was a approached by a Japanese Girl looking for directions to a sharehouse at a certain address, as I had nothing better to do I was happy to help her find the place she was looking and I walked her to it. After this I got a rhyme stuck in my head and I kind of like its message. Here it is “Random acts of kindness, go unnoticed but unpunished, so I’ll just do another one” (Yeah I know it doesn’t rhyme  but oh well)

I had the luxury of spending Friday in the good company of Ruben and Cheater (Nick Stallman), whilst Ruben was twice late and his lateness generated a ripple effect which saw me home late (missed trains), the afternoon whilst not much more than a few shared Warcraft 3 custom maps, all in all we had a wonderful time (to quote Judy Small).

On my way home I met a nice old lady on a train, who offered me a seat and we got to talking about Nuclear Energy, Human Morality, Futility and Solutions for the future. It was very interesting and enjoyable to say the least.

I spent most of Today’s at Chrystle’s (See Mdu- link on  blogroll for her LJ or here)  just catching up and having fun, this was a great experience, was quite funny and enjoyable. Topics we covered included Minti (the adorable cat), lolcats , using packaging as fake snow, the dispersion patterns of this snow for various actions like walking, running , blowing the foam etc, bananas, Ozy & Millie ,

fairies (the mythological creatures), blood sorbet, chainmail condoms, Space Invaders, Easter Eggs, Word Tennis, World Building, Pretty pictures in GIMP (see Flamingworm in Gallery) , the cuteness of foxes and cats eg animals in general, that small things amuse small minds whilst even smaller watch on (what does this say about Big Brother fans), the annoyance of Parents and Siblings, Jam Drops, the Abbey Festival, Ivanhoe, Soup, Flatuelence and the list goes on and on and on.

I also managed to do some UML study thanks to the Butterfly Ugly Betty Stick figure. Anyhow bring on the morality :P.

(Extracted from Wikipedia, in Harvard referencing form
Seven virtues, http://en.wikipedia.org/w/index.php?title=Seven_virtues&oldid=136541757 (last visited Jun. 18, 2007). )

As I don’t like APA referencing and prefer Harvard :P.

Anyhow, whilst these sins and virtues are accepted by the Catholic Church and have their specified meanings both of the the newer English words and their older latin bases, take a moment to reflect what these sins and virtues mean to you, where they stand under your current morality or conscience and have a look at which side of the balance you think you are on.

Humanity as a whole is collectively leaning toward the Sin side of the balance by focusing on the sections of human nature that have been associated with negative connotations and ignoring or misplacing the sections that have been associated with positive human nature.

If we are ever to fix any problem on this Earth or in this reality, we must fix repair the balance of our collective Morality by collectively changing our attitude and focus on human nature and morality.

Any how back to Gentoo updating, studying UML, Programming Abstraction and Linear Algebra :).

The question tonight is you had the power to grant one wish to somebody else not for your secondary or primary or nthary gain, who would you grant that wish to and what would it be ?

Best of luck and keep enjoying yourselves

Benjamin Southall aka Appleman1234

Hi everyone,

This is my third audio blog, as all good things come in threes, well perhaps not, but shmeh,

Have fun and Best wishes

Benjamin Southall aka Appleman1234

BTW please check out the pictures, lyrics, poetry, extra stuff etc

BTW I CAN HAS Audio Blog 3 ;P

Hi everyone,

Whilst I have been audio blogging, I felt that I should return to written form because I need to write / type some stuff in order to properly self express myself, as written language seems to give more freedom than verbal and less prejudices than verbal. Although I can’t really be sure. First up

Computer Science / IT / Linux Nursery Rhymes

This little piggy programmed in Lisp
This little piggy programmed in C
This little piggy programmed in Perl
and this litlle piggy programmed in CPL & basic assembly

Little miss muffet
saved to her emacs buffer
her files and data displayed
Along came a vi-er, who terrified her
and flushed the buffer away

Three MCSEs
Three MCSEs
See how they code
See how they code
They code with VB and ASP.NET
So terribly that you want to forget
Three MCSEs
Three MCSEs

Add the data to stack
Place it their in sequel
Give it some CPU time
Pop goes the weasel

Next

I was able to get in contact an old friend of mine that I meet in Yr 10 when studying Indonesian as a visiting student at USC. As I thought I had lost all contact, this is definitely something I am very happy about :). I may be able to get credit for one my Indonesian subjects I did there, and that should help my GPA.

That said my mood is currently conflicted after watching two movies (WarGames, Rage in Placid Lake). The theme question of WarGames regarding futily of war and other things (What a strange game. The only winning move is not to play. How about a nice game of chess? ) makes me wonder how many other strange games there are in Life, in thought and in everything else ? The second movie talks about a semi social outcast and his efforts to attempt to normalise himself, it hit very close to home, as the main character’s situation reminded me of my own slightly, and also caused more thought and consideration into previous memories , decisions and actions.

Hope however is a marvelous thing, because despite everything from illogic, philosophical questions about life, busyness caused by my university situation and my current mood, hope allows me to attempt to pull myself out of digging my own grave of despair mode and attempt to refocus and restabilise / justify who, why and what I am to myself and the world around me. Thanks for those have been supporting and inspiring me, it is greatly appreciated.

If it is better to have loved and lost then not to love at all, does that mean that love isn’t a strange game ? Big Brother is a strange game however, because despite the prizes at the end, both the contestants and the spectators lose their dignity in exchange for a million, a holiday and car …., nothing changes the romans enjoyed watching the gladiators, now the people enjoy reality television which is in fact one of the biggest oxymorons that I am aware of.

I am not doing too badly at Uni, although I would have liked to have done better on my Statistics Midsemster, and provided I do better on the final exam, I should have no issues, I also have to focus on getting the outstanding assessment commitments done, so I can study for exams. I have examined my degree pathway and am a little annoyed that MAB580 isn’t offered anymore, but as I have identified a valid secondary pathway (Plan B ) I should and will be fine.

In all the reflective learning we have done in MAD (Modeling Analysis and Design), I have come to the same conclusion as a both my team members that most systems are much easier to just lightly plan and develop as opposed to using the techniques taught by the subject. Whilst I am sure UML will come in handy, I prefer Petri Nets and State Machines and other more mathematical ways of modeling. On this note Umbrello and Dia are really good tools for UML modeling, but both still need a few more improvements.

People having being shoving Discworld (Pratchett) references in my face and it reminds me of the amount of stuff (Discworld,C, C++, Emacs, Vi, Language / Linguistic skills, Rollerblading, etc, list goes on) that I learnt or mastered a long time ago but need to brush up on. I am most likely going to enter Trolltech’s Greenphone competition (I have the SDK, and am brushing up on my C++, both for comp and Wesnoth, and my QT). As probably aforementioned I really like the greenphone and winning one or even having the chance to develop apps for it and QT, is a great oppourtunity.

Also wanting to get WINE to link correctly on my Gentoo 2007.0 (originally from Sabayon), which doesn’t seem to want to link wine to right libraries without a custom ebuild or an EXPORT statement. It would be nifty if WINE was slotted so I could do the regression testing on WinMX a fare bit faster / easier.

I also have to study up on Networks, UML, Abstract Data Types & other concepts, Linear Algebra and Statistical Analysis for my exams. Wish me luck. My emerge world is all done now (finally, kde-meta 3.5.7) except WINE but that will be fixed shortly. The Syntek Driver for my Webcam has version 1 release out, and it is a noticeable improvement in webcam quality. My apologies to the people I unintentionally irritated this week, group assessment creates short fuses…

The Asus Acpi also has new driver out that turns my previous always off wireless led to always on (bug filed), it should be changeable like the mail led using echo, but for some reason it is not. Make 5 Wishes Manga also reminded me of Rage in Lake Placid, and also helped me related to myself.

I am virtually sick of games without good or innovative game play, we need to revert to the classics or to innovate lest people die of boredom. (ET Quake Wars is going to be awesome when it comes out.)

This blog’s questions are related to both WarGames and the song lyrics of AT 17 (remember those who win the game, loose the love they thought they gained),

Is love a game ? Is life a game ? Are either of them strange games ? Is winning everything ? anything ? Is it better to roll the die or pass, fold or hold, take a chance or sit on the fence ? Are the sacrifices worth the victory ? How many sacrifices can one make and still win or draw the game ? What the game fun ?

Best wishes
Benjamin Southall aka Appleman1234