It suits me and it is just one word
Esoterism
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Benjamin Southall aka Appleman1234 π
To a T
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Gingerbread, bittersweet, partridges, darkness, how do you save yourself from yourself ?
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Salutations in moonlight
Truth …
Lies ….
Secrets …
Surprises …
Honesty & Chivalry war in my mind’s eye
Seeking Compassion & Redemption
For Crimes Not Committed
For Glass Shards that bleed my barefeet
And yet don’t exist, or perhaps my feet aren’t there
I couldn’t be certain, and yet I couldn’t be wrong
The damage done and only realised post mortem
If only consumption was enough
One day you will all get the keys
To play in the ball pit and do as you please
Hopefully by then my half-life will have decreased
But perhaps we seek the pain and damage
To prove we are real, as having faith in something
In order to just feel, Depravity becomes Humanity
As we stop caring, and just continue to exist
Legal obligations require moral sacrifice
And a pound of flesh and a pound of soul
Should both weigh the same
Persecution, Criticism creep along the foundations of Tolerance and Acceptance
A riddle and a rhyme interlocked in time , its all between the lines
Of a polygon that doesn’t exist, don’t bother with the compass
It will only lead you to the labyrinth, and why go there when you could have had icecream instead
Fight the Minotaur, Wage your holy war, only to realise you are just killing yourself
So much self assisted suicide, it is as though we think we are born to die
Use by dates stamped on our heads, ensuring innocence is lost
Things loved and people discarded, in hopes that we can accept ourselves
Balls of string and dainty things, provide the perfect disguise for cyanide tea
Kippers gone know, along with the dolphins and whales
Have you seen Alice she owes me a prose, the White Rabbit owes me my pocketwatch
And when I will next see either, noone knows
Eat this, Drink that, Size doesn’t matter, does it ?
Too late now the order is past, off with your head!
Oh wait, you’re already headless blast
The caged bird it sings of the blue skies and the sunshine
Never realising that the door is open wide,
Brrr, so that is why my neck is cold, despite its mantle
Rhapsody or Empathy , what was that which was said to me ?
If I had a penny for each time, then I would be penniless
Everything has its price, and everything good doesn’t feel right
Hide and go seek, 1… 2… 3…, Try as you might you won’t find me
Before you know I will have climbed the FarAway Tree
Or hidden from myself, whether I fancy
If you were lucky, then a skeleton you would find, with ring on my finger
And Wardrobe behind, Narnia or Dorian Gray as too my fate, either would say
Nothing and no-one, abundance and glee, shrouded in hollow comptemt and facidious misery
Would I sup with Saint George, only if I could save him the trouble of committing genocide ?
Or perhaps the Jackerwocky is a better dinner guest , behind his appearance and behaviour, is less of a mess
Giant wooden bunnies and rude castle intentions, false bravery and a luck break
False illusions of grandeur and stones and dead birds
Are shallowly laughed at without saying a word
Recurring dreams, nightmares and doom, I’d rather be betrayed by Jack Sparrow, then conclude
That eight pieces of eight isn’t sixty four and that isn’t Thumbelina making out with Little Jack Horner
On the hearth rug, and what of the Calico cat and Gingham Dog, bickering over colour swatches and then doing each others laundry over coffee
It is so much easier to love a dream, as a dream doesn’t carry poison knifes, wielded with deadly aims,
Instead prefer to haunt the mind, scourging the soul, for whatever they find.
And the Doctor says I should go camping, but I have no intention of going to Gor, as fun as it would be to meet the Priest Kings or live and die by the homestone, and sword…
And those Ninja rats can watch and wait, the Oracle of Ishadna doesn’t know my fate
As for Sebastin’s composure and the love of the CareBears, well I guess they are over…
The Hill, sat a cross, an innocent life, surrounded by naughts, and yet that is somehow more fair then global thermonuclear war.
Why fight for peace, when you can play chess, beware the path of the knight at its best
Too many wagers, too little time, play not to win, not to lose, but to escape with my life
Torch of Illuminace + 3 doesn’t make the cavern any less dingy
Oh look I killed a Newt, now to roll a 6, Please pass the fruit
Peas catapulted, potato flying, along with Spaghetti, such a monstrosity unlike the cafeteria has ever seen
It will take a 1000 cleaners, a year and half just to get this clean
Ajax from chemical to web success, marketing buzzwords portray standards as second best.
Pictures mosaicing a path, Smiles breaking an already brittle heart, but at least the filling is sweet
And the flesh is good, quite nice to eat,
The Lion and the Mouse, The Rabbit and Tortoise ,
They try to teach you wisdom but you discard such childish pursuits.
To go play your Wii or see what is on cable TV ? Where was your class supposed to go ? The Museum ? The Opera ?
Or was it to witness Jimminy Cricket, the conscience of Pinnoccho
Culture these days is more like bacteria then humanity, growing in our yoghurt while we fail to care
Behind the mask, under the trapdoor, what lurks there now, that wasn’t before
You wish it was those two plumber brothers, collecting coins and spitting fireballs
In the above is hidden many meanings and some wisdom, there is still gems in plain sight but the coal is buried much deeper, and the pocketwatch deeper still, and if you get deep enough you might realise why I write this.
There is no question, the spontaneous prose / poem is cryptic enough, if you find it easy, think again slightly different, it should be more tough…,
How do I feel today ? I feel broken, but not damaged broken, just normal broken, so really nothing is wrong with me, I am just having troubles with emotions, self expression and fortitude
Not sure if it is because I am bored or because I am nice, but here are some clues, more cryptic advice:
The message above mentions or intertexutalates with
Sorrow
Jim Henson’s the StoryTeller
Wisdom
My Mind
The Layout of My Mind
Radioactivity
Shakespeare
Geometry /Mathematics for Computer Graphics
Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy
Japanese Whaling Crisis
Alice in Wonderland
Bohemia
Enid Blyton / The Faraway Tree
Oscar Wilde (The Portrait of Dorian Gray)
CS Lewis (Chronicles of Narnia)
Saint George and the Dragon
Jabberwocky
Monty Python
Pirates of Caribbean
Fairytales and Mother Goose
Calico Cat and Gingham Dog
Doctor Who
Gor
Wizards and Warriors
Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles
Little Mermaid
Carebears
Worldhopping
Wargames
Jesus
Chivalry
Dungeons and Dragons
Humilation
Food fight
Flying Spaghetti Monster
Ajax
Spain
Mosaic
Jewel
Valentine’s Day
Cannibalism
Crabmeat
Aesop & his fables
Popular culture
Simcity 3000
Pinocchio
Disney
Acidolphius
The Mask
The Phantom
Secret Seven / Famous Five
The Mario Brothers
And several more that I haven’t realised yet…
Have fun,
Benjamin Southall aka Appleman1234 π
*sigh*, in one door out the next, misrepresentation blues
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I was going to rant and release here but *meh* *sighs*
Later has come, First things first Happy Birthday Lisa. I am wondering do I wait till Australia has a national ID card, pay $60 for a Keypass card (the closest thing we currently have) or pay $24 dollars to get an 18+ card. This scenario all arose from the events that happened two days ago, which invovled me getting let into the Treasury casino on my student card, then going with Lisa and friends to the ATMs which are located in the most weird location near the rear on the ground floor at the back of a casino. Signage to them was also confusing, we finally got there got money from the ATMs (I was getting money as I would need it for the coming week.)
Then I tried to get back into the casino and was told that they don’t except student cards (apparently they are easier to fake than other forms ID…), this confused the cognisance out of me, if they didn’t accept student cards, why the first security guard at the door let me in ? We then went round the front to double check and now they wouldn’t let me in.
Those who know me, know I don’t drink or gamble, which makes the scenario more ironic. I then asked whether I could goto the Blackjacks restaurant downstairs. (which isn’t near the gambling areas and the entrances to gambling areas have more security guards), I was told I couldn’t go down the stairs to the restaurant….., My Mum has always said that if I ever needed a good meal in the City I could go to Blackjacks, but it turns out that I can’t….
It would have been much better if they had refused me correctly the first time, because that inconsistency bugs me, Getting refused initially would have been fine, because it wouldn’t be a broken standard. It is like going into the swipe card doors at uni at getting let in, and then when I want to get out, the swipe reader on the inside won’t let me out…
We ended up going to Strike bowling bar instead, and whilst it was still a nice night and Lisa still had a ball, I still feel confused and guilty. Although music from Cat Stevens and Jewel is wearing the guilt and misery away quickly and my pancake stack breakfast also helped.
So now I have to decide whether to wait, pay $60 or pay $24 dollars, to prove I am who I say I am. One of the wise or semi wise things (I sounded like Millie from Ozy and Millie) was “What is the point of being old, if no one believes you are old ?” I still looked great in my purple suit, and Dallas looked great in his suit and fancy shirt :).
This annoys me for two reasons, one the broken standard reason which I see all to often, eg Feminists want Gender Equality, and yet the government only has Violence against Women being wrong in Australian TV ads, nothing about violence or abuse in which the sufferers are men.
In my humble opinion, it should not have female actors being all victims and male actors being all protagonists. Sure statistically men are at least 70% of sexual abusers are apparently male, but if we want Gender Equality, then the Government should have Violence against People and fair advertising…, (Chaser’s War on Everything made a different but valid point / joke about the portray of actors in Government ads).
The second thing is the lack of national and international standards, this was an issue I also faced with my Senior Certificate, (I got OP score which is QLD only), I wanted an International Baccalaureate as it was an equivalent International qualification. (but it wasn’t available…) This world needs global standards, national standards, not each state having different solutions per state. Sure some things are state specific but others can be nationalised.
The state of QLD is also being very stupid with all the council amalgamations, especially by not having a referendum on the issue. If that actually looked into the problem, instead of looking for an easy way out, they would have identified the buerocratic rubbish that slows development and problem solving at the local government level, they would find the corruption and the fact that the councils we have aren’t weak just inefficient. But then again any legislative political system involving a committee prides itself on its lack of productivity or benefit to society in general .
So in short broken standards & double standards aren’t worth the legislation they are written on,(So eliminate them using proper legislation, education and training) and Certain things need to be localised and others need to be centralised and others still need to be globalised. Make sure enough though is put into which goes where.
Anesthesia is normally localised, Subversion is Centralised, and most multi-national corparations like MacDonalds and Coca-Cola are Global…
Simpler than it looks but harder than it seems ….
So if anyone has any experience with success of keypass in Queensland or states other that Victoria and Tasmania, I would love to her about it.
The question today is what would you do if you were in a world where your identity was stolen, not believed, etc ?
Have fun, Stay safe and start something
Benjamin Southall aka Appleman1234 π
Back to front and upside down, weird sleeping patterns, anzac biscuits and changed times, and so many invitations.
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Hey everyone,
The last few days have been very very busy but lots of things have been happening. Uni is great, although it is only the end of the first Week, so maybe the diagnosis is a little early. Life isn’t bad, and isn’t exactly good (in the wonderful sense) but it seems to be tolerable.
It is amazing how lack or excess amounts of time can borify (coined word, meaning to make boring, I could have used dullify but it didn’t convey my mood or colloquialism as articulately) or stimulate a basic activity, like washing the dishes or cooking food, or doing study, or walking from place to place. The same could probably be said of mindset and enthusiasm for a particular task.
[Positive odds and ends, that will terrify & alienate most logical people or coldblooded bastards]
(This section is similar in form to a poem I read ages ago, but the content is different)
You should love what you do, because only once you love it, will you enjoy it and excel at it.
: You should accept what you do, because despite the fact you can do something else, or do something better or worse, it is what you do (did) not do, not what you could have done that matters , that causes reactions and opens doors and creating opportunities.
You should love who you are, because it is unique despite the social stereotypes and generalization of society, because you are special, beautiful, wonderful, terrible, if you don’t love yourself, you can never love others properly, you can never feel right, because there is always that self love missing.
You should accept who you are, because no amount of physical or mental manipulation is going to change your acceptance or lack of acceptance of yourself.
You should live , try , feel despite the results, because ultimately it is better to try , live , feel and fail / have a bad experience then it is to fail by apathy / lack of trying.
You should smile, laugh, cry, anger because emotions are normal and natural.
You should treat others as you would have them treat you.
You should accept others because while they may be different from you, they are still people too.
You should love others because it is a cold dark lonely life to be alone with nobody and nothing.
You should believe , Have faith and trust
You should learn and grow and think and question
(this part is an interesting and simple route to happiness or success or contentment or enlightenment, however it does involve going against human nature)
In order to be content
1. Have something (easy part) or have lots (still easy part)
2. Be content with what you have. (hard part)
[End Positive odds and ends]
Anyhow, enough positive glitters of what people should do in order to not lose sight of the life they are living.
I have been enjoying my life, engaged in
- Funny, interesting, detailed, mathematical, logical lectures at Uni.
- Purchasing the most awesome textbook ever. To elaborate it was bought at the second hand bookstore and it was further discounted as a new edition was out, upon brief inspection before I purchased it, I noticed it was natural bound (not rebound) back to front and upside down, so to read it properly the cover appears upside down and back to front :), the clerk at the register tried to sell (salesperson sell) it to me, but she was preaching to an old timer, that knew the faith better than her, I bought it immediately and bounced down the stairs with sheer glee spray painted all over my face.
- The second maths modeling lecture wasn’t as funny as the first, but it did have the lecturer mentioning infectious diseases as we are doing population growth models (SIS, SIR for those who are interested), each time he said the words infected, infection, either myself (who just had a runny nose from not eating enough icecream and having too much salt) or something else sniffled, sneezed, coughed or wheezed, it was the the yawn effect (one person yawns, three people yawn, etc) gone orchestral
- First Computer Architecture Lecture was great, despite the quoting of a stupid article published by APC, about Con (ck-sources guy) quiting kernel development, the article style and title were scandal style (Linux Kernel exposed, Con reveals all), the title was misquoted on Slashdot, and APC isn’t a decent Linux magazine, Linux Format could be if it didn’t cost $25 to most people outside the UK. During the lecture I learnt we were using DJGPP on Dos, and was sad I couldn’t just use native tools, but I got DJGPP working with Dosbox quite easily, so I can do assignments and such on my laptop.
- My Mathematics for Computer Graphics Tutor is really funny and seems like an awesome guy, so I am also enjoying that subject
- I spent Friday night and most of Saturday at Darren’s 21 first part organised by Elise (a good friend of mine), and met some wonderful people, and had an interesting series of discussion about society, Tesla’s lack of fame, Doctor Who, Religion, Magic, Heritages, Electronics and a series of other topics. From observation (as I didn’t participate, as I don’t drink) I conclude that turn based drinking games suck (as the rate of alcohol consumption is to fast, the fun of the game is to small, and the hangover hurts like hell) , I did suggest round based drinking games but got ignored.
- After leaving the party goers lying in the sun (at a nearby park) after we had eaten breakfast at Chermside Shopping Centre, I was determined to walk to my Grandfather’s place at Kedron, whilst being dehydrated and hot. The walk was fun, despite all the heat, hills and the surprise on my Grandfather’s face was worth it. It was wonderful to catch up with him and talk about politics, the past, how things were in his day (some of them sound so good, I wonder why they were changed) , the dust, the races (His family’s tradition), Americans, Australian story and other bits and pieces. My grandfather is so generous, he gave me Anzac biscuits to take with me π , I then caught the bus into the city and got home and slept
- After that I woke up at 9pm , did some things involved movies on TV and other stuff, till 2am, and then slept again. (hence the weird sleeping patterns)
I have also been invited to lots of different things, this seasons to be the season for birthdays, events and invitations, at least my purple suit will go to good use.
I am slowly getting world up to date with Gentoo, but haven’t got the 2.6.22 kernel compiling clean yet.
If you could play hide and seek with reality, would you and where would you hide and why ?
If you got given $100 from a stranger, what would you think of that stranger ? and what are the chances of you giving that $ 100 to another stranger ?
Best wishes, keep having fun
Benjamin Southall aka Appleman1234 π
Emo yeast, Kitty Pool, Skeletal Clothing & Hip Hip Hooray
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Hey everyone,
Uni is back, had my first Mathematical Modelling (mainly ODEs based) lecture today, and the lecturer who is new to QUT, mentioned over crowding and yeast that said “Life is crap, this place (petri dish) is crowded and crap, I want to die”, to which the entire lecture room laughed, and I had to suppress a shout of Emo Yeast!!.
On the last week of the holidays I spent lots of time at Ruben’s, because he had his LAN party (which wasn’t bad) and his birthday which was awesome, I met lots of cool people, demonstrated my skill or lack there of at pool / 8 ball. Cries of “Damn you Bede” were echoed in both events, and the watching of Family Guy, Firefly and Invader Zim were enjoyed all round.
I was going to upload my resume website thingy after cleaning it up, but it seems to have mystically disappeared, so I can’t do that obviously. I am currently composing / writing the verses and bridge for a song that I have the chorus for and also brushing up on my knowledge of C, C++, QT, Assembly and ODEs (Ordinary Differential Equations).
I also bumped into an old school acquaintance on the train, and that reminds of my quest / task of attempting to have a reunion or Mafia or Mao game with a bunch of people, those who are interested just email me or respond to my email when I get round to emailing you.
Other interesting things that have been happening,
The Magic Train Ticket (It changed dates or something like that, as it was accepted by lots of people who asked, when I found my real / current (not old) in the bottom of my pocket I was so surprised)
The Mecure has a good steak sandwich. π
The Guy on the Train, that accused me of staring at him, and then when I made sure to only look at my knees / feet, he asked was something wrong.
[RANT] Why does everyone automatically categorise and associate negative connations with certain actions, If I am sighing there is something wrong, If I look at my feet, there is something wrong, If I look in someone’s general direction, I am staring at them and thus I have a problem with them.
Where will it end, will it become like certain events in the US where if you look at someone accidentally and they interpret it as the wrong way, you get stabbed or shot ? Clarification is a very important part of communication and stereotyping people just to improve one’s self esteem or to alleviate the fear of unknown doesn’t limit that person, it limits your relationship, behaviour towards and your ability to cope with that person.
It is only when a person stereotypes themselves or believes the stereotype that their self esteem begins to suffer. Where did courtesy go ? chivalry ?
I wish people would understand that same and equal are not equivalent. Men and Women are equal but not the same,Different Ethnicities are Equal but not the same, People placed in stereotypes are equal to that stereotype (if the stereotype is logically placed without bias) but they are not the same as that stereotype.
Equality isn’t about making everyone the same, it isn’t about forced integration and interaction and facadious multiculturalism. Equality is about realising that despite our differences we are equal and tolerating those differences or even celebrating those differences doesn’t hurt a society.
I think that feminists shouldn’t misinterpret chivalry as a sexist gesture that implies that can’t do things (open doors etc) as well as men. If men are being chivalrous (which is rare enough these days), then just accept the chivalry graciously. As a sidenote to this can the idiots (normally male) who are being chivalrous just in order to get into a girl’s pants, please stop because you are ruining it for the rest of us.
The journey is more important that the destination.
*SIGH* end rant (this rant may have wisdom inside it, if you can be bothered looking)
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As for the Skeletal Clothing I suppose that would be skin and muscle tissue, but I was actually referring to the awesome picture on Chrystle’s LJ. (LJ is down ATM :()
Have fun,
Imagine life as a drop of rain, or a snowflake, If you could play any game on an amusement park ride what would it be and why ?
Benjamin Southall aka Appleman1234 π
Burung api, reunions and cinematics, Ozy and Millie, and Birthday’s galore
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Hey everyone,
Here are some Indonesian phrases (almost proverbs) that I discovered, when in a semi depressed / semi concerned state based on all the emotive or argumentative MSN conversations I have had lately, they are slightly sad but do raise a philosophy question or three.
Kata semua menyakit, mengapa saya berbicara lagi ?(Every word hurts, why am I still speaking?)
Pekhiran semua menyakit, mengapa saya berpikir lagi ? (Every thought hurts, why am I still thinking?)
Api yang menyakit aku, tetapi api juga menyenyumkan aku, api teman atau musuh ? (Fire it hurts / burns me , but it also makes me smile, fire is friend or foe ?)
I also went to see Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix with Chrystle and some of her friends, surprise I met Emma and realise that we have already met from TOM (Tournament of Minds) from ages ago. The night was a great night, the movie was good (yes much darker but good, and I reckon some of the casting could have been better) and the company was excellent, between Jam drops, Skittles and watching Emma and Chrystle devour ice cream, it was the most fun I have had at the cinemas in a while.
The discussion about the supposed Emo Invasion of the Sunshine Plaza was also interesting. (hehehe)
Have a lot of birthdays coming up that I have to look for gifts for, I also caught up with Pat last night on MSN, and am preparing for Ruben’s LAN. Have you ever tried chewing or sucking on icecubes with cold feet in a hot shower, the sensation is weird yet amazing ?
The question for today is What is the weirdest thing / usage of Cheezels you have ever witnessed ?
Where there is smoke there isn’t always a house burning down
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Between lighting the fire and my current pastime of cooking Chiko rolls (pan fry as apparently baking them is treason to their iconic Australianism), the closed windows because it is winter there is little piece between then shrill howl of the two smoke-alarms that do their jobs oh so well (setting off at least 8 times consecutively for lighting a fire in fireplace and 3 (make that 5) for pan frying Chiko rolls)
I prefer open fires to fireplaces as there is so much more freedom, as your not limited to a small cubic box and my Chiko rolls are much more black / charred then their advertisement claims. (My guess is their instructions don’t cover a gas stove and cast iron frying pan)
Anyways back to fry pan I go to make sure the kitchen isn’t on fire :P.
UPDATE: Their distributor has a money back satisfaction guarantee, so If I don’t enjoy my black Chiko rolls, I can get money back.
Vistors, Round Cleared, Logicisms , Discussions and Regression.
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Hey everyone,
This was going to be an audio post, but I don’t feel like talking /recording at the moment.
Anyhow I have lots to cover.
First Things First (Because they can be first, second or last and it wouldn’t matter) and keeping them brief so people can’t use excuse it is too much read. *sighes*
Over the holidays so far (since after the Trolltech BBQ), I have attended a 75th birthday that was so much fun. It is really fun to be able to catch up with family friends and their family. Funny or interesting sub-events at this event included:
- The cute children and the newborn baby (terribly cute).
- Siblings and Mother arriving late after half listening / misinterpreting directions
- My reluctance to eat until the Kabana & Liquorice arrived (on the platter of nibbles we weren’t supposed to bring but did anyways)
- The early accidental unveiling of the birthday cake.
- The hide and seek / cover myself with hat and hood game, played with 2 to 3 little youngsters trying to dehood / dehat me.
- The impromptu request (as I am studying mathematics & IT) to fix someone’s palm pilot.
- The piece of cake that fell on the ground, that I bet my little brother would walk / step in, and he did.
After this (a few days) we had two of the people (close family friends, Lisa and Alice) come for a weekend sleepover. Interesting things that occured include but are not limited to
- The poker game based on the success of my little brother’s (should I call him bother, for now he has the benefit of the doubt) flamboyant attire (suit and cane, etc, etc) in the previous game, which I was winning until Lisa asked to win some, sure enough she won the game :). (see previous post for why I find poker boring..)
- The watching of Robin Hood Season One on my laptop (Thanks Dallas so much for that….) , after the first few episodes, there were two more Jonas Armstrong fans in the house.
- The attendance of the Abbey Medieval Fair (sub-events are shown below)
- The drive in Lisa’s car (her driving has improved, and I still don’t drive)
- The broken CD player that would only play the first 5 or 6 songs of a CD.
- The more comic than skilled Jester that was been very modern in handing out a business card with his Myspace
- Getting to see two pigs and a lamb on spits
- Asking an expert in regards to weapons used by the clergy (as originally discussed in #wesnoth @ Freenode)
- Watching almost everyone but me get more excited over the presence of Shelley Craft than the fact they were at the medieval festival
- Walking Lisa through a medieval market and have her not purchase any non food items
- Looking at Germanic early cannons
- Getting irritated at trivial and major inconsistencies made by those with the best intentions in reenacting medieval life
- Avoiding bumping to people (Including someone from Lisa’s uni, Celeste, Chrystle ( π ) and at least 7 other people)
- Seeing how chainmail is made, after misinterpreting the location of the event (That was my fault, but we were only 10 minutes late and it wasn’t crowded)
- Missing the oppurtunity to get better seats for the jousting, because I choose to wait for Lisa and Alice to get Snow Cones (Did they exist in medieval times ?)
- Not dressing up and pretending to be Ivanhoe (I so wanted to…)
- Watching the wonderful French Movie “The Singer” (so sad, so romantic, so French)
- Having a wonderful brunch with more family friends (Paul, Birgit and Jessica from the Gold Coast)
- Their story about the letter about their journey through Africa was amazing and awe inspiring
- Oh and the food for the brunch was very very good. (not to die for)
- Having Dallas come over (Lisa and Alice left soon after.) (Dallas has a chicken and we have scraps for it to eat, it is a good arrangement, Dallas you should mention your chicken on your blog and upload a photo or something)
- Watching Jessica and Dallas play air hockey (first there was rules and order, then cheating and chaos)
After all the fun was over I got online and checked my QUT Virtual and allo and behold, my results were posted and I didn’t fail anything :). So the second Round or Third Round of Space Invaders is cleared, although without the shield bonus and gun bonus (see previous post for the in joke).
I really should be doing more with my holidays, I have lots planned and lots of planning to do and will get around to it before Uni is back. I have been playing Wesnoth, slowly translating bits and pieces of Wesnoth into Indonesian in Kate, I tried Kbabel didn’t like its obfuscating and specific interface, I have installed poEdit and am yet to try it.
I have also been chatting on IRC and MSN, one of my recent conversations was with Mircea / Danny / Rastilin (not sure exactly what his name is, he is a friend of Nick Stallman), started out a question about Debian, and became a beliefs / philosophies argument (at kept me up till 3am).
My analysis of his approach is shown below (The full log will be shown on request only, until I am ready to a major philosophy post, this post will only have the analysis and some highlights)
(02:17:27 AM) Appleman1234: it is interesting
(02:17:50 AM) Appleman1234: whenever you deem yourself as not being victorious, you change the subject or the angle
(02:18:23 AM) Appleman1234: or when your logic doesn’t result in the conclusion you expect from me you instead resort to taunting and cheap insults
(02:20:34 AM) Appleman1234: however the method of conversation you are using isn’t exactly that of critical thinking, or that of scientific reasoning , or even that of scientific or philosophical skepticism
(02:21:23 AM) Appleman1234: it is merely I believe your belief is wrong because of Reason A and because it doesn’t match mine,
(02:21:48 AM) Appleman1234: when asked to clarify you either do so reluctantly or vaguely
(02:22:28 AM) Appleman1234: and when posed with questions, you either claim incomprehensibility or retort with an unjustified insult
(02:23:29 AM) Appleman1234: I also forgot the stereotyped
(02:24:10 AM) Appleman1234: So logically you haven’t invalidated or changed any of my beliefs
(02:29:27 AM) Appleman1234: however your style does remind me of doublethink
It makes me wonder as such (referring back to the protester and the candle, (if you know what I am talking about , you are a diligent reader of my blog and I admire you)) why people try to discredit others beliefs, to replace them with their own all in the name of criticism and critical thinking ?
Beliefs are rather important and special to a person, if you remove their belief system, what do they have to live for ? What are they to believe ?, before you attempt anything as to brash as basically brainwashing someone with their consent, at least be able to answer the question “Why should I believe what you believe”, with a better answer than “Because I said so”.
Highlights from the chatlog are shown below:
01:47:59 AM) rastilin: You want me to debunk your beliefs with illogic?
(01:48:08 AM) rastilin: Purple flying elephants!
(01:48:08 AM) rastilin: There
(01:48:12 AM) rastilin: Debunked with illogic.
(01:48:14 AM) Appleman1234: sigh
(01:48:25 AM) Appleman1234: that is surrealism not illogic
(01:49:32 AM) rastilin: Is there something wrong with my logic?
(01:51:49 AM) Appleman1234: no just your interpretation / definition of debunk, illogic and your understanding GΓΆdel’s incompleteness theorems
(01:26:09 AM) rastilin: The hardest lesson I learned was that I was not a special snowflake or holder of unthought wisdom.
(01:26:50 AM) Appleman1234: why limit yourself through lessons, why not expand yourself instead ?
(01:27:05 AM) rastilin: Because the expansion is an illusion.
(01:27:07 AM) Appleman1234: if you have nothing to gain from a lesson , why learn it ?
(01:27:17 AM) Appleman1234: Reality is an illusion
(01:27:22 AM) Appleman1234: it is all perception
(01:27:22 AM) rastilin: Because there is something to gain, I just can’t see it from where I’m standing.
(01:27:32 AM) rastilin: That’s silly.
(01:27:52 AM) Appleman1234: faith in incorrect perception is your reasoning and yet you label me silly
(01:28:25 AM) Appleman1234: I would rather believe that I can be right, then that I am always going to be wrong from a different viewpoint
There could be more but this post is long enough already. On the bright side I visualised more of my philosophies and certain constructs and I discovered ##philosophy on Freenode, on the dark side I got 6 hours sleep this morning and I got kicked from my Wesnoth Game.
Final Note: I got phpMyID working and now I can log into LJ and post on Chrystle’s and Stephen Thorne’s LJs :). (I only took me 6 hours due to a typo…)
This blogs question is Do you belief in acceptance of others and if so or if not , then why ?
Best wishes
Benjamin Southall aka Appleman1234 π
Everyone a vocalisation of a self composition that was been stuck on loop in my mind for the last 5 years
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Hey everyone,
This isn’t the audio blog I mentioned but it is something I am pretty proud of, I actually took the time yesterday to record a basic recording of a song I wrote about 5 years ago. The name of the song is either Everyone or Why do they fly, I wrote it when I was being bullied in Year 8 of highschool on the squash courts whilst slightly bored.
It is about social conditioning, competition, reality and lots of other little things, The version I am uploading is still a little raw / rough as it has only had a normalisation and equalisation in Audacity.
As a side note, my voice is quite flexible and whilst this key isn’t the key I originally first sung the song in, it is the key / tone that I believe really suits the song. Lyrics are on the Lyrics page and I haven’t decided on the release license yet.
Enjoy or run away in terror (depending of what you think of my singing)
Benjamin Southall aka Appleman1234 π
What is wrong with sighing ? *sigh*
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Hey everyone,
In an attempt at another short blog post, why does everyone ask what is wrong if I sigh either online or offline and when I answer a response less than great to a “How are you ?” question ? Why is something wrong ? Why are we used to something being wrong? and what makes you think that people are going to tell what is wrong especially if it doesn’t concern you ?
Can people sigh in peace ? All these trained reactions and stereotypes make us more and more like NPCs in an MMORPG. That would be fun a Real Life MMORPG, I would so want to go questing :). Cohesion is an element that is all too often lost in both reality and gameplay.
Thanks to Kerri, for introducting me to ” The Retro Toasters”, I like their music and their flickering background, although that may have been all the mushrooms I didn’t get to saunter in butter and feverishly devour.
*sigh* *smile* *giggle*
Complacency and high latency ensure redundancy especially with mood swings and ball pen dreams, can I borrow some syrup to douse the flaming pancakes in hope that they won’t be char-grilled ? Preferably not molasseses or golden syrup, maple or honey would be fine. But chances are you wouldn’t have any sweetness in that pantry of yours and if you did could you ship it in time ?
Benjamin Southall aka Appleman1234 π