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Hell’s library is run by an expatriate, sleepless nights, logic and faith, amongst other madness

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Hey everyone,

It seems my last post was too soon. πŸ™‚ I am now in the process of recompiling every useful application so that it will find libexpat 2, which has had a recent ABI change. It is things like this, that prove that the perserverance and patience I have actually has a use. Lucky for me, I am using a dirty symlink hack (ln -s newlib oldlib) to allow my computer to function, well enough until revdep-rebuild finishes.

On the upside my sound works on startup as I found out in my C HASH (This is my campaign to get it reknown as C HASH) lecture, when the KDE startup sound cheerfully blasted out of my laptop speakers during the first third of the lecture.

It is true that Gentoo and Linux has its niggles, but at least with Linux you can fix them because of the nature of the ideals of opensource. BTW I have nothing againist actual expats, my family and I were ones for quite some time.

(C HASH) I have been very busy with university lately especially 002(IT professional skills), but it hasn’t stopped me from thinking and questioning, which lead me the following conclusions;

  • Everyone tries to help so much not realising that all their help does sometimes is create crutches that people don’t want to use.
  • Atheists especially Strong Atheists (Look it up in Wikipedia) and Skeptic Atheists, are hypocritical in the fact that they state they have faith in nothing, whilst not realising or acknowledging that they have faith in the methods that justify their statement, our the methods that justify their methods and so and thus forth. (I probably should elaborate and I will later, but this blog has so much to cover.)
  • My First Postulate: Everything = Anything = Nothing;

Proof:
Let a be everything , (for my fellow mathematics blog readers a is a vector)
As nothing is the negation of everything
Therefore nothing = -a
The magnitude of nothing (|nothing|) = a
Anything is anything between everything and nothing, that is the magnitude of anything (|anything|) = 2a,
However the average value of anything is the magnitude divided by the other two bounds = a.
(Or anything can be any value between -a and a, but on average the average magnitude will still be a).
As a = a = a. (Law of equality)
So in terms of magnitude Everything = Nothing = Anything (on average, on random, in everyday life)

Q.E.D. (This is proven.)

  • All facts are either rubbish or irrelevant, this statement is of the second kind. (A quote by me)

UPDATE: Have just completed 002 SP Part 1.

UPDATE 2: libexpat2 issues are fixed.

Updates are what happens when I put my blog on hold and store it in a text file for safe keeping.

Slight elaboration on Logic and Faith

This isn’t full detail, if it was then most of my blog readers would get more lost then they already are. (Well they are reading my blog, so they must be lost :P)

You believe in the existence of an object
Because of this belief, you know this object exists

Your belief is based on one of two things
1. Logic, you can logically (using whatever logic system necessary) prove the validity / reality of this belief.
2. Faith, although you can’t use logic to prove this, you know it to be valid and you believe in its validity without the aid of observation and logic

Your used of the word knowledge is saying you know this to be true, either though logic or faith. You say knowledge makes faith redudant but it actually justs hides the basis of the belief, because if you know the belief is valid you no longer require justification of the belief’s validity. However just because you no longer require it doesn’t mean it no longer exists.

Faith Basis Diagram

The above is a basis diagram. As shown by the diagram faith is the basis of Knowledge. I also have made the extension that faith is the basis of everything, which people find hard to believe. The proof of that I will no go into here, as it is more complex then a basis diagram.

I also went through a proof for the existence of a God amongst other things. (I will not elaborate yet.)

TA: Total Addicted, TA (Total Anhilation) Springs and Cheater’s ties to it.

All the while CS hasn’t being working @ Uni (probably new image), so most gamers / slackers (LAMFs) have been playing DOTA in Warcraft 3. Cheater / Nick Stallman doesn’t really enjoy DOTA, so he found TA springs. (TA springs only has one flaw so far in my opinion Linux and Windows network games not working.) (URL is http://taspring.clan-sy.com/)

He is totally addicted to this game. Evidence is here
First Evidence
Second Evidence
I had to put this blog post on hold 3 times and save it as a text file. This was painful, I now have a sore throat.

Sleepness nights
Like sleepless days
More often then not
Make you tireder, a lot
In a blurry sleep deprived haze.

This little verse has wormed its way in my head, probably due to lack of rest and to dealing with other people with lack of sleep.

I will finish this post now, not because I want to but because I must.

I ask the following questions:
Is the denial of faith, worth only believing in truth ?
What would Hell’s library be like if it existed ?
If you could stop time, would you and why ?
Are there things worth living for , dying for and more importantly studying illogic for ?
Why do people who could create masterpieces, prefer instead to vandalise and destroy them ?

Happiness and faith to all ,

Benjamin Southall aka Appleman1234

PS : Get well soon to me.

w00t @ Gentoo and my Linux Skills.

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Hey everyone,

Gentoo and Sabayon (instant Gentoo) are awesome. I downgraded my WINE and now WinMX works (well still having connection issues.) I am currently back on LMM (linuxmoviemania.com)(Using RoboMX) The more I use WINE, the more I want nvidia to hurry up with their new drivers (the ones that support xorg7.1).

I could just downgrade but where is the fun in that. Overlays in Gentoo are great. (Using local overlay with knetworkmanager, networkmanager, java 1.5 32bit (stupid ELP), and mplayerplug-in-bin). Because of this, I have discovered the magic and wonder of video.google.com and youtube.

I also have been getting CD Covers for my music in Amarok, Amarok is brilliant. Mono is great for C#. Anyways these are some videos / advertisements you have to see:

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=8333280591924223277 (Awesome IBM ad)
http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=464341645856662330

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=1962236020450962985

(Awesome Redhat Ads)

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=96745502000914740

(Muppet Matrix, no more needs to be said)

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-5503174580036399256

(Bill Gates leaves a dinner party because Apple and Linux references)

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=2326396283485985651 (Wesnoth trailer)

http://youtube.com/watch?v=6JtHDkM9JhM (pure Linux gamer ownage)

(My name is not related to the Apple company, it is related to a mishearing of Aquaman in BNL song One Week.)

This blog post’s question is: If life was just one big video recording, which moments would you want to watch, love to watch , hate to watch or be to embarrassed to watch ?

BTW Big Brother isn’t Real Reality TV. (it is a sham)

Best of luck and have fun

Benjamin Southall aka Appleman1234 πŸ™‚

Disappointment, broken promises, an apology, early starts, back to work

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Hey everyone,

I went to a LAN Party (uberfest) hosted by Curtis Bayne on weekend before I went back to university. The experience was an utter disappointment with numerous things turning out wrong.

These included

  • taking and hour and a half to find the location of the place on foot
  • Cheater not showing up (because he couldn’t find the place in car)
  • My Gentoo not having a Direct Connect client prior to the LAN
  • A feature in 2.6.17 messing with WINE (easy fix, once I had net @ home)
  • The LAN didn’t have net
  • Nexuiz or Wesnoth wasn’t played
  • and the general conduct of the other lan guests was deplorable and disrespectful in my opinion

Otherwise things I have been tolerating. Things that have annoyed me include, Nvidia not releasing newer linux drivers that fully support X.org 7.1, Sun not releasing 64 bit Java with webstart. Limewire and other P2P clients not working. Considering I use these to share FOSS software which is perfectly legal and I am in social group on WinMX (Linux Movie Mania)(which normally works under WINE), this is really irritating.

I have also started an IT Professional skills subject at UNI, (which was hated by my fellow IT students last semester), I asked a genuine question of the guest speaker (previous student from last semester), and after talking to people, I am slightly worried he might have taken it the wrong way.

I don’t have his email yet, but would like to apologise for any embarrassment caused, I wasn’t trying to criticise him, just to find out whether the subject would improve people’s common communication and speaking problems. (He did handle my question, quite well though, I had the rebuttal lined up, but decided that the first lecture wasn’t the time or place.)

The early starts (up at 4 / 5 am) to get to uni before 8am (I commute) and late finishes are getting tiring but the subjects I am doing and their respective staff make it worth it. Whilst I am apologising for things, I apologise to Cheater, that I won’t be able play as much CS any longer. (I swear he is addicted.)

I am learning C#, and I enjoying the fact that Mono and Monodevelop working quite well on my Gentoo 64bit laptop. I hope to revive / recreate Fat Burger (A queneing simulation program, written in DOS) using my C# skills once I gain them, not to mention creating a program that answers one of the questions from my other maths subject (Computational Mathematics 1).(Wow, just imaging fractal generation in C#)

I also want to make a Maple macro that gives Maple the same functionality of the up key as the Linux Shell, but am not sure how to do this. I will probably host a LAN Party after this Semester and its exams are over. (Long way from now).

It is funny how the things you expect to enjoy become miserable disasters, and the expected miserable disasters become things you enjoy. (Note: this doesn’t mean I enjoy 002 or C#, I haven’t done enough of either to decide.)

That said, I is amazing how many times lately I have been humming Ironic (the song by Alanis Morissette). (Life has a funny way of helping you out. etc) I still haven’t meet Redhatter face to face and would like to.

If you have incorrectly expected something, I would love to hear about it, or you can just answer this blog’s question, If you really didn’t exist, would it affect your current existence ?

Best of luck and pineapple fish fingers πŸ™‚

Benjamin Southall aka Appleman1234 =)

Tara, Gold Coast, back to Gentoo where haven’t I been, hey look my wireless works now :)

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Hey everyone,

I am no longer full of sorrow. I apologise for not blogging sooner but whenever I tried I got interupted.

Going Places
I have been very busy traveling I went out to Tara (out past Dalby, which is out past Toowoomba), to visit an old friend of mine. After spending approximately 2 days with him and 1 to 2 more with his family (Whose hospitality and kindness were greatly appreciated) , I have decided to aptly label him the Tara Gangster without a Gang.

Whilst in Tara, I met several people, watched Hostel (stupid / terrible movie, gore scenes not gory, scare scenes not scary, sex scenes not sexy, and in the one opportunity it has to redeem itself, by creating a romance and a sequel in the partnering of the hero with 8 fingers and the Japanese chick with one eye, is ruined because of the need to save face (common cultural custom) in short the Japanese chick commits suicide by getting herself splattered / crushed by a train / locomotive).

I also spent time with the Gangster’s younger siblings (all male) allowing them to abstract (as in data abstraction etc, ) their need for bickering and violence out of reality and into my laptop. (Counterstrike and Wesnoth have found another use.)

After staying Tara, I was picked up from Toowoomba and came home. I then (the next day) went to Uni to meet Nick / Cheater in order to return to Gentoo. (Suse automounting being broken was annoying me). He said we would get it done in time, we didn’t. I personally wanted to use Sabayon. (awesome Gentoo livecd)

In my opinion if I had gone with Sabayon instead of straight Gentoo it would have been easier, but he didn’t think so. The reasons we didn’t get it finished included; a bad kernel symlink and Nick / Cheater spending too much time playing CS and not enough helping me. πŸ˜‰

So I made my way to Central Train Station to catch my train to the Gold Coast. I then spend the trip watching my Gentoo compile.

I got picked up, well meet by some great family friends in the Gold Coast.
Besides my gentoo compiling, the only memorable things from my time of the Gold Coast, were

  • a conversation that I shared regarding the value of “Street smarts” (Real life learning). and methods and styles of thinking and interpretation, the incompetence and stupidification of society by media (Think Big Brother, yuck ), education systems and government
  • and watching the “Pirates of the Caribbean”, awesome movie, but best of all, I love the characterisation of Captain Jack Sparrow. πŸ™‚
  • and finally enjoying a Dixie cup icecream

I have then returned home, and spent the last few days getting my wireless working.
w00t it works now.

Disclaimer

Names of things that are copyright, are copyright their respective owners, I mean no harm.

Gentoo Notes

Nvidia video drivers do work with Xorg 7.1.0 (despite what they say), you just have to use sub-pixel hinting in KDE.

The gentopia overlay with networkmanager and the custom ebuild of knetworkmanager inspired and tested by me, and made by cvilli64 and rubengonc of #Sabayon πŸ™‚ work using WEP with BCM4318. (bcm43xx native driver). I am not using Gentoo’s net scripts or base layout, because I like Knetworkmanager :).

This means that I am right (To quote Curtis Bayne, “I win”) and Nick / Cheater owes me Mentos. πŸ™‚
BTW, I passed Maths and 6ed (distinctioned) IT. Note to self, study harder in maths, much harder and don’t get freaked during exams.

On a closing note, if you had free trip to anywhere, anywhen where would you go ?

Best of luck and keep living

Benjamin Southall aka Appleman1234 πŸ™‚

Lost in a dark place, only I know the way, I have been here before. The darkness will soothe my soul and heal my wounds.

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Hi Everyone,

I am not in an average or happy state like my previous posts. I am currently depressed with some stuff. I will get over it eventually but hey, that is life. I am that depressed, I begin to wonder about suicide and then realise my previous promise to myself and find the will power and resolve in the back of my mind. (It is the big golden box.)

I am very lucky to have this willpower and resolve, others without it have killed themselves or attempted to many times before. I have helped counsel some people out of suicide using it. As my birth was so miraculous (I survived a stroke / brain blood clot as 3 month premature baby. Doctors said I would be vegetable (no talk, no walk, no etc), and I proved them wrong.), this gives me another reason why I wouldn’t kill myself.

If I was supposed to die, I would have died then in hospital, when I had stopped breathing (numerous times). Some people produced some good stuff when they are pressured / struggling. I felt like reattempting to create stuff, so I am.

I am recording and mixing some music, making some artwork (eventually availiable on my gallery), continuting my explicit and dangerously offensive fanfic, writing some more poetry amongst other things. Made some ebuild mimetype icons for Gentoo and another Wesnoth map. (I will eventually publish my wesnoth maps)

I like the darkness and the cold. I wish QLD had snow and that I could be nocturnal. (instead of being harassed for going to bed at 1-3am). I am eager for gentoo (I want it installed and working before holidays end and preferably before lan party) and for Curtis’ lan party.

Maybe some mathematics would cheer me up, or maybe not. πŸ˜‰ (MAB111 has damaged my enjoyment of mathematics, but it will recover in time) Music and poetry are wonderful tools in expressing self beauty, euphoria, depression and other emotions.

If you could have one special skill what would it be ? Mine would probably be intangibility. (The ability to become intangible and tangible at will

Best of luck from the darkness in my cave
Benjamin Southall aka Appleman1234 😐

Beauty,angst, stress, relationships, imagery, custard tart, what do you see ?

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Hi everyone,
The time to relax is nice if I could get any, I am busy remembering at the things I need to do ;).
Amongst everything that has occured so far, in a brieft list of summary is shown below:

  • Returned in a much more concise way to Place of Much Chocolate Gorging (now on known as PMCG), on Roman corner. However the journey was spoilt be having to put up with the constant replaying of tape recorded insults.
  • Met with family friends at PMCG
  • Watched as friends and family enjoyed chocolate buffet (Which I don’t eat, as I don’t have caffiene), I also ordered nothing :), went home.
  • Went shopping with friends and family @ DFO, or more accurately watched as others shopped and got mad at lousy lunch (Subway. Tm) (Subway is normally enjoyable but the employees at this branch were in dodgy rush hour mode.) and at the fact I couldn’t be decent discount dictionaries (I mean $75 for a dictionary, gah) and that the Sony (Tm) store didn’t have headphones that could survive being slammed in car door. (the way my last headphone 2 pairs of died.)
  • Had adequate return journey with more insults, but with a friend who is staying at my house for a few days.
  • Felt like a fifth wheel giving happy birthday greetings is to a sibling (not the one with tape recorder) who is on a horse riding camp. (So many people looking at you funny.)
  • Came home, had dinner and custard tart for dessert and had interesting and angsty conversations via IM

Okay that is brief summary version for those who complain my blog is too deep and long. (This is a one off and only done because I wanted to write a summary.)

Beauty, angst, stress and relationships

One thing I have experienced since exams finished is slight freedom. I have spent time admiring the beauty of things and life, both simple and quite complex. I have thought about euphoria and self inquisition and wondered why people are the way they are ?

I have suffered laughter and irritance in numerous levels of relationships and conversations. From outside view these would seem like simple things, but with each relationship and conversation topic my mind has a wealth of depth and hidden dominoes that rely on what is occurring.

Having a relationship of any kind is one of the most complex and difficult task a human being can undertake. It seems society today has forgotten this and calls people who don’t engage in having relationships anti-social amongst other things. Their are numerous things which today’s society has lost or forgotten the importance of, I am sure that each of you, will be able to name at least 3 things that society has forgotten in this mists of eternity.

I am really interested the studying this world in comparison with supposed utopias and dystopias, especially those presented in fiction. They make me wonder if I was in their world instead of this world would my life be better, would relationships be easier, could my questions be answered ?

I read an interesting analysis / comparsion of Aldous Huxley’s Brave New World and George Orwell’s 1984 (I have read both books) which summarises the entire thing as BNW’s world being an dystopia due to the things we love (even though it is portrayed as uptoptic, it comes at a terrible price) and 1984 being a dystopia due to the things we hate.

The quote the article made is below:

Social Critic Neil Postman contrasts the worlds of 1984 and Brave New World in the foreword of his 1986 book Amusing Ourselves to Death thusly:

What Orwell feared were those who would ban books. What Huxley feared was that there would be no reason to ban a book, for there would be no one who wanted to read one. Orwell feared those who would deprive us of information. Huxley feared those who would give us so much that we would be reduced to passivity and egoism. Orwell feared that the truth would be concealed from us. Huxley feared the truth would be drowned in a sea of irrelevance. Orwell feared we would become a captive culture. Huxley feared we would become a trivial culture, preoccupied with some equivalent of the feelies, the orgy porgy, and the centrifugal bumblepuppy. As Huxley remarked in Brave New World Revisited, the civil libertarians and rationalists who are ever on the alert to oppose tyranny “failed to take into account man’s almost infinite appetite for distractions.” In 1984, Huxley added, people are controlled by inflicting pain. In Brave New World, they are controlled by inflicting pleasure. In short, Orwell feared that what we hate will ruin us. Huxley feared that what we love will ruin us. (2006, Wikipedia.org http://en.wikipedia.org/Brave_new_world)

This lead me to examine our world, and wonder is what we hate and / or love ruining us or keeping us unspoiled ? Should we alter the balance of love / hate, should we change what we love and hate, does reality have the chance of becoming semi-utopic / semi-dystopic ? Is it ?

Imagery, Custard tart and what do you see ?

I mentioned early that I have setup gallery2 and the wordpress plugin. πŸ™‚ This is my test for that. I had custard tart for dessert tonight and whilst in didn’t look that nice it tasted beautiful (especially with vanilla ice cream.) Imagery is all around us, if we care to look, as is beauty, if we should only care ..?

Switching back to Gentoo is looking very tempting almost as tempting as custard tart.

This is a picture I made in GIMP (awesome stuff), I realease it under GNU GPL or the appriopriate Creative Commons License for images if GPL doesn’t suit the medium well enough.

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The source image (.xcf is avaliable from http://applemansigloo.net/gallery2/main.php?g2_itemId=25)
The image is titled What do you see ?, and it is exactly that, it is an abstract picture that can be interpreted in numerous ways. Please feel free to answer this any other questions posed :).
Best regards to everyone Benjamin Southall aka Appleman1234 =)

Different subject , same scare and yet more other things

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Just did MAB112 exam , it was about the same experience as MAB111, if I pass I will be happy.
But now onto the holidays, I will recover and work throughout.I salute Curtis for his prolife post. And I continue to be astounded that Nick also has Knights & Merchants( good old game ported to Linux). I have lots of things to think about over the holidays and even more to do.

I have learnt that I must not get distracted if I have to keep my hacker work ethic (mixing play and work and making work play and play work) in order to achieve the results I deserve. I am going to continue my writing and composition of artistic things over the holidays. I am thinking of becoming a deviant @ deviantart.com but am not sure.

I have setup Gallery2 and Gallery WordPress plugin and am attempting to manually install fortune-mod πŸ™‚ . I also intend to switch back from Suse to Gentoo with Nick, sometime during the holidays and to attend a massive LAN party (That Curtis is hosting) as a resident Linux guru and troublemaker.

I have also realised that importance of fluid learning and doing practice problems in order to cement required knowledege, ironically enough by not doing enough of this (not just in education, in life as well). This amongst some small other things is my Semester 2 resolution.(provided I make it)I need to get my hands on the 12th Lemony Snicket The Series of Unfortunate Events book, so I can read it (Just found and read The Grim grotto).

Learn from your mistakes, else what is the point in making them πŸ™‚

Best of luck and wishes

Benjamin Southall aka Appleman1234 =)

I survived the test of Mathematics, If I pass then all is well, amongst other things

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Mathematics
I survied my first mathematics exam.

In hindsight I should have studied more. Besides not fully remembering the rigourous definition and proof of limits and running out of time and being confused by implicit differentiation syntax I didn’t do that bad, IMHO.

The MAB111 exam was also very stressful unlike the IT ones. I was annoyed going into the exam because I didn’t know the subject material fluid (only in bits and blocks) and as much as I like to only blame myself, I definitely sure there were other factors invovled.

Stuff that annoyed me: The formula sheet (7 pages) had all the formulae expected for the ones you where confused about or needed to clarify your memory of. The way the exam presented itself was confusing. etc. I knew how to do the maths and answer the questions. I just got stuck remembering stuff or got confusing by weird syntax.

Anyways, providing I pass which I should I am over it. Someone mentioned that such things as supplementary exams, but I am not sure I should go through this again.

One thing is for sure , this will probably not happen again. If in future I have an issue with a subject, I will not let it affect marks, I will instead implement a supplementary studying plan.

Definitely studying harder for 112 , once burned, twice shy.

Other Stuff

Lost my fan fic, and had to get it off a test reader. So now I have it again and when I continue writing I shall have to redo Hagrid. My fanfic is rated ZGestapo%qwerty and should only read by tolerant minds with a Good sense of humour. Some of the people that have read it hate / think it is gross etc , others to what the fanfic was designed to acheive: make them laugh their heads off.

Fixed my wesnoth map. =). Happy Birthday Cheater. Your present would have been reading my fic, last night, but you didn’t like that so I will have to find something else. (Maybe I can recruit Curtis in my quest to get fortune on the server so that, this site has fortune.) BTW I have semi-installed WP-quotes but can’t be bothered activating it or compiling all quotes from fortune.

Cake is nice, I am going to have some soon. Other interesting things include Curtis’ Crusade to overload efa servers, Cheater’s discussion on nuclear power (for more info check my blogroll) and finally Cheater’s birthday reminded me of my own,(its a long way off) but I need to plan for it.

I leave you with the questions, Was Macbeth crazy ? (I know the answer, but want to know what you think) Does anyone what a copy of my fanfic for beta reading ? Should my site have random fortunes ? Did you watch Alice in Wonderland ? (awesome movie) Who wants pistachio icecream for breakfast ?

Best of luck
Benjamin Southall aka Appleman1234 =)

If QUT was an IRC server

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*Now talking on #qut
Topic for #qut is: Education as usual, Breaking the student code of regulations will not be tolerated, Automatic redirects to appriopriate sub-channels- Website: http://www.qut.edu.au, etc

Appleman1234 has joined #qut
Appleman1234 has been redirected to #qut-greenroom
Cheater512 has joined #qut
Cheater512 has been redirected to #qut-greenroom
Bo has joined #qut
Bo has been redirected to #qut-greenroom
Phracture has joined #qut
Phracture has been redirected to #qut-greenroom

*Now talking on #qut-greenroom
Topic for #qut-greenroom is: Education as usual, Breaking the student code of regulations will not be tolerated, Please observe the new rules and signs due to the recent vandalism and spamming of this channel:Website: http://www.qut.edu.au, etc
Appleman1234: Hey everyone
Cheater512: Hi
Bo: Hey
Phracture: Wassup people
Appleman1234: Not much
Cheater512: Just finishing the map πŸ˜‰
Appleman1234: Studying for exams
Phracture: admin: Kick me, I dare you !
admin: Can’t kick Phracture, Phracture is enrolled.
Phracture: Come you can to better than that..
Phracture installs server in #qut-greenroom
Appleman1234: Nice
Cheater512 pulls out Gentoo CDs and winks
Appleman1234 giggles
Phracture: Don’t you fucking start with that shit!
admin: Phracture warning: Please don’t swear or shout
Phracture: Make me!!
admin: Desist, or your enrollment will be terminated and you will be kicked
Phracture: Like I care, it is not as if I want to be here
admin: Fine, processing proper paperwork
Appleman1234: Come on Phracture, stay here
admin: Phracture has been kicked from #qut-greenroom (“Too cool for #qut-greenroom”)
admin: Phracture has been kicked from #qut (“Too cool for #qut”)
Appleman1234: =(
Cheater512: πŸ™
Bo: wtf ??
Bo: Why did he go ??
Appleman1234: He didn’t want to be here
Cheater512 looks at remaining server and Gentoo CDs and smiles
Cheater512: brb, getting jolt and mars bar
Cheater512: You should have some Apple
Appleman1234: No thanks
Appleman1234 laments the loss of Phracture
Appleman1234 buries himself in mathematics study to try to forget
Appleman1234: Grrr, He would have done so well =(
Cheater512: Rofl, Just won another free mars bar
Appleman1234: On the bright side at least no more Bald Knob jokes
Cheater512: Bald Knob, rofl
Appleman1234: Damn I spoke to soon
End

Notes:

Whilst being a realistic as possible, this is only a model of reality and poor one at that. It was purely created in the name of comedy. Damn this post was supposed short.
Best of luck to all,

especially Curtis Bayne, may you have success in any endeavour you undertake.

Benjamin Southall aka Appleman1234

Cartography, broken glass, dead butterfiles, solitary mathematics, eternal yearning.., Do you want to die tommorow?

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Hey everyone,

My IT exams are finished, now with only mathematics exams to go. Meanwhile Cheater / Nick Stallman (a very good colleague / friend of mine, just wish the jokes weren’t all on me) is busy porting the IT Block from Reality to Counterstrike. (3d modelling / map making, etc)

Which brings us to Cartography and Broken glass :

Cartography is the study of maps and map making. (for those who don’t know) . Maps are geographical models of Reality. Why Cheater is making CS map of the Green Room is an interesting question. When I asked him, he said it was because he wanted to shoot me in the Green Room in Reality but couldn’t so CS was the next best thing. He also said that he’d settle for stabbing me.

I again asked him why and then offered my pocket-knife …, to which he then ensured me it was all in jest.

Which makes me think about how we perceive reality ? Do we use our perceptions to model reality, so that we can understand it.

Cartography, logic, mathematics and perception are all different models of reality. (Oops I mentioned mathematics too early oh well ;P)

If we make all these models of reality then we define what we see and do in Reality as being Realistic and yet sometimes from a different perception it isn’t. Reality is thus dependent on our perception of it.

The topic of dialogue, after him decimating me (exaggeration) in CS on PoolParty, (The ratio was about (me)1: 1.7(him))(more brackets for those who hate Scheme ;P, Sorry to those who do but I am not making many assumptions regarding the readers of this blog), then became how to manage the breaking of the glass from some of the Green room windows in his map.

I told him to make it linked separate entities but he admentaly stated that there was no programming language behind Valve Hammer editor (TM Valve as is CS) and to do it that way would be a dirty hack, I then asked / pointed out about the elevators. =p Whilst we are on the subject of broken glass, another Uni’s colleague Windows is busted by spyware and virii today.

I tried to help him, but he went offline. Myself, a devoted Linux (TM , Linus Torvalds) user, believe the all Windows problems can be fixed by switching =) or at least by hardware format. (intertextual ITB004 reference ANSI-SPARC criteria for logical data independence isn’t met by Windows, as the easiest way to fix a logical data corruption is to do so at hardware / physical level).

(Any mention of Windows is TM Microsoft aka Microshaft aka Mirco^%*@ and Windows of Microsoft software are in no way endorsed or recommended if you in any way value the goodness of your computing experience or the stability of your operating system .)

Onwards to Dead Butterfiles, Solitary mathematics and eternal yearning ,

Dead butterfiles.., It is said that the oils on our skin, stop butteflies from flying, thus no flight = no food / pollen = death in maximum 3 days. (edited from death upon contact, as Cheater pointed out the flaw. ;))

ASIDE (This subject and blog post has many metaphors and multiple / hidden meanings, I have tried to make a fair few obvious for cohesion, (my blog , cohesive, semi-oxymoron), but the rest are like Wally (Waldo sounds bad, intertextual reference to blogs on my blogrolls anti-america posts.), (bracket haters scream now ;P)), Oddlaw, and Wanda, you have look hard to find them)

Dead butterflies are like things that we wish to do but can never successfully attain. (Like Nick’s humourous desire to shoot me in Green Room), hence the eternal yearning in title. Many Windows users have issues, that they complain about or put up with but fixing them is like a dead butterfly.

Numerous others play the lottery / other gambling or have romantic relationships which the result is a dead butterfly. Like the stuff we go to buy in the shops, that is never there or always out of price range or stock.

So there are numerous things we eternally yearn for that are dead butterflies and most of us don’t realise this till too late.

Also on eternal yearning, goto Google (Tm Google) image search and look for interesting adjectives / nouns. (ie redemption, agony, euphoria etc). The results will either shock or intrigue you.

And finally onto the Cool stuff Mathematics and Death :

This weekend I will be studying for my maths exams amongst other things. BTW I wonder if one could use probability to accurately predict the chance of a desire being a dead butterfly. Maybe I have found a use for my linking circular logic structures after all.

But I should probably focus on stuff that will be on Exam.

Ok Death, Death is Death and the concluding question and notes are:

Paraphasing a well known quote, It is better to have a dead butterfly than no butterfly at all ? (Or is it)

And another one: You can chase a butterfly all day, but there is no point in catching one.

Counterquote: Yes there is, if you wear gloves.

Is death better than live with numerous / or infinite dead butterflies ?

I would love to know what you think.

All the best

Benjamin Southall aka Appleman1234 =)